Maintenance

🌙 Stream more from Suzu 🎶Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/1eaeNCif3f2azlABk5kAdN?si=qMAt4XnDR8eCtPDZdVftAQ 🎵YouTube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4HOkCsEUTSfAl_5Cr8aw6Q/ ✨Linktree (all platforms & updates): https://linktr.ee/Suzu_Records [voice sampling] “Everyone says it gets better. They never say when. They never say how.” [beat drop] [Verse 1] I wake up already exhausted Didn’t sleep, just paused the pain Opened my eyes like a chore Another day I gotta fake They say “time heals everything” That’s said by people who left Time didn’t heal shit It just taught me where to shelf the mess I thought growing up meant clarity Turns out it’s learning to lie Calling survival “discipline” So I don’t ask myself why I didn’t quit my dreams dramatic I watched them get priced out Hope turned into a luxury I couldn’t justify now Bills stacked taller than courage Responsibility dressed as doubt I’m not depressed, I’m realistic About what this life costs now [Pre-Chorus] They said “follow your heart” My heart don’t cover rent They said “trust the process” Never defined what it meant [Chorus] Is this living or just maintenance? Keeping damage under control I don’t feel broken, just postponed Like a life put on hold by the cost of hope If I stop pretending I’m okay Does everything I built collapse? Am I healing, or just really good At hiding cracks behind facts? [Verse 2] I’ve seen winners feel embarrassed Like success exposed the lie I’ve seen failure build more character Than anything money could buy I’ve seen love turn contractual “I stay as long as it works” I’ve seen happiness become a task Another shift, another perk They don’t break you all at once They just teach you how to cope Growing up just means You learn which dreams are socially acceptable We edit life into highlights Crop out the days we decay Most of us live in the middle Where nothing improves, it just stays I don’t want fame or a legacy I want a room where I can breathe ‘Cause applause don’t mean nothing If I can’t stand the person that’s me [Bridge] Maybe purpose isn’t progress Maybe it’s staying intact In a world that keeps rewarding Whoever adapts by going numb [Chorus] Is this life or survival training? Am I free or just well-behaved? If I live the way they trained me Will I recognize my face? I don’t need a happy ending I just need this shit to be honest If I give my whole life to this I wanna know I actually lived it [Outro] I don’t have answers. I just stopped calling numbness peace.