[Intro] Wide awake at 3 a.m. Clock stuck, same number again Ceiling fan carvin' halos slow Shadows talk like they know my soul (yeah) [Verse 1] Dark thoughts parked in a long row License plates all spell "don't go" Every face I hate in a slideshow Every slight replayed in a tight loop, mind cold See their throats, see the flash, see the red mist Hear a scream in my head I won't ever admit Hands shake when I picture the damage Whole crew vanish in a blink, like magic Jaw clenched, grindin' on the molars Scenario after scenario, colder Every petty little grudge grow bolder I'm the judge, I'm the jury, I'm the shoulder holster [Chorus] In my violent dreams, I paint the walls All my enemies line up, then they fall Wake up drenched, heart racin' out my chest Prayin' I don't ever take that step In my violent dreams, I'm not the same Swingin' at the world with a heart full of flame I don't wanna be what I see in my sleep But the darkest part of me won't let me leave (won't let me leave) [Verse 2] Streetlight flicker on the closed store glass See my own face like a stranger walk past Eyes look hollow, skin look wax Like I'm already tagged on a cold toe slab Fantasize sprayin' the room, full panic Bodies on the tile in a red tide, manic Every insult etched like a tattoo I rehearse every route that I could crash through Then I see my mama on the front row, cryin' News van parked, every headline lyin' "Monster in the mask, snapped, went violent" Channel turned down but the crowd stay silent I taste metal in my mouth when I imagine it Finger on a phantom trigger I ain't even havin' yet It's a movie in my mind that I can't stop All the credits roll with my name on top [Chorus] In my violent dreams, I paint the walls All my enemies line up, then they fall Wake up drenched, heart racin' out my chest Prayin' I don't ever take that step In my violent dreams, I'm not the same Swingin' at the world with a heart full of flame I don't wanna be what I see in my sleep But the darkest part of me won't let me leave [Verse 3] Then the lens flip, camera turn inward Gun in my hand pointed at my own picture See my brain on the floor like a Rorschach Tryin' to read peace in the gore, can't force that Imaginin' the splatter on the cheap couch Phone still buzzin' while the feed shouts "Should've seen it, he was always that quiet" Everybody actin' like they didn't see the riot I stand over me, feel both sides One pull and the noise in my skull subsides But my little sister bangin' on the door in my mind Screamin' "wake up, you don't get to rewind" I hold that scene like a loaded shell If I cross that line, I drag 'em through hell So I lock that thought in a steel cage Write it in a verse, bleed it on the page [Chorus] In my violent dreams, I paint the walls All my enemies line up, then they fall Wake up drenched, heart racin' out my chest Prayin' I don't ever take that step In my violent dreams, I'm not the same Swingin' at the world with a heart full of flame I don't wanna be what I see in my sleep But the darkest part of me won't let me leave (won't let me leave) [Bridge] [Drums drop, distant vocal echoes] If I say it out loud, does it lose some teeth? If I name every demon, do they leave my street? I been dancin' on the edge, starin' over the ledge Tryin' not to turn a nightmare to a blood-soaked pledge Talk me down 'fore I talk myself under Storm in my chest sound like thunder I don't wanna be a headline story I just wanna wake up and not see gore in
