[Intro – Soft Melodic Rap] Yeah… Baby, there's a war that nobody can see, I'm fighting all these feelings living deep inside of me. I'm scared of what I'm feeling, scared of where it goes, I'm terrified of losing control. [Verse 1 – Rhythmic Rap] Lately, I've been fighting just to keep myself together, Trying to control these feelings getting stronger than ever. There's love inside my heart, there's a fire in my veins, And I'm trying to hold it back while I'm drowning in the waves. If I act cold, if I seem far away, Please don't think that's how I want things to stay. It's not that I don't want you, not that I don't care, I'm fighting with myself when I'm standing right there. There's demons in my head, trying to take over my soul, Pulling at the strings while I'm fighting for control. I don't want them deciding how I love you every day, So I hide what I'm feeling, push the feelings away. [Pre-Chorus – Melodic] And I know you see me changing, I know you feel the distance grow, But there's a battle underneath me That I'm too afraid to show. [Chorus – Emotional Melodic Rap] I'm terrified of losing control, Got a war inside my body, got a storm in my soul. There's so much love and lust that I'm trying to contain, Smiling on the outside while I'm drowning in the pain. If I seem cold, baby, that's not what I feel, I'm just fighting all these battles, trying to keep it real. I love you more than I ever dare to show, And I'm terrified of losing control. [Verse 2 – Faster Rhythmic Rap] Sometimes the night comes, and the tension wakes me, You're sleeping peacefully, while the darkness takes me. I look at you lying there, so beautiful and still, Wanting to hold you close, fighting against my will. I wanna kiss your lips, pull you closer to my chest, Give you all the love that I've been keeping repressed. And sometimes my mind wanders, wanting even more, But I keep those feelings buried, keep them locked behind a door. I won't make my feelings something you must carry, I don't want my inner battles making you feel wary. So I lie there in silence, with a thousand things to say, Trying to let the storm inside me slowly fade away. And some nights I feel like I'm losing this fight, Like my own mind's a battlefield that never sleeps at night. But I keep trying, baby, even when I'm running low, 'Cause I love you more than you could ever know. [Pre-Chorus – Melodic] And I know you see me changing, I know you feel the distance grow, But there's a battle underneath me That I'm too afraid to show. [Chorus – Emotional Melodic Rap] I'm terrified of losing control, Got a war inside my body, got a storm in my soul. There's so much love and lust that I'm trying to contain, Smiling on the outside while I'm drowning in the pain. If I seem cold, baby, that's not what I feel, I'm just fighting all these battles, trying to keep it real. I love you more than I ever dare to show, And I'm terrified of losing control. [Bridge – Soft, Vulnerable] Baby, please remember when I seem far away, I'm still the one who loves you more with every passing day. I'm not asking you to fight the demons here with me, I'm just trying to find the strength to be the man I wanna be. I don't want my fear to push you from my side, I just need to learn to face what's burning deep inside. There's a heart beneath this silence, there's a love you'll never know, And I'm scared of what might happen if I ever lose control. [Final Chorus – Powerful Melodic Rap] I'm terrified of losing control, But I'll keep on fighting for the love inside my soul. I'll try to find the balance, find a way to let you know, That even when I'm distant, you're the one I won't let go. If I seem cold, baby, please don't read it wrong, I'm fighting to be gentle, trying to stay strong. I love you more than I ever dare to show, And I'm terrified of losing control. [Outro – Soft Melodic] Yeah… While you're sleeping peacefully, I'm fighting through the night, Trying to keep these feelings somewhere deep inside. I love you more than words could ever show… I'm terrified of losing control.
