I feel the fire fill my lungs And it burns with every breath Making blisters on my tongue Leaving holes inside my chest My balance isnt great Im not thinking all that straight Now I cant help but panic Cause my thoughts have turned irate Im bound by the chains Of my drunken decisions They told me to be safe I don't tend to listen I'm meeting with my fate Through a head on collision Im broken inside And I'm losing my mind There's no hope for me At least none I can find I Visited rock bottom And I stayed for dessert I'm in a rough collum But I get what I deserve Wish that I lost what I Tried to desert And Im so sick but I Know it could be worse In a couple ways I Feel like i'm cursed But my actions were not defined By the state of my birth So now I gotta rise from this Dark desolate earth I made my mistakes And im sorry And I know that it takes More than i'm sorry I wanna move past this Building I crashed in My buckle was fastened But still I got glass in my face I know that my actions weren't safe Causs Drinking and driving Is not what I do But drinking and driving Is why i just blew Double the limit I swear I regret it I know that I said it before I could be dead in a morgue At least I can walk in the court I know that I cannot afford To pay what its costing At least there's no coffin I shouldn't be walking Im thankful I am I'm grateful I can Stand up on trial And say that i'm guilty There's no denial I smashed in a building The shame that I carry I wont let it kill me I should have been buried From the walls and the ceiling The moment is scary But I am not willing To let myself fade For my stupid mistakes I will not evade And Ill do what it takes To make sure I've paid For the risks that I make I feel so defeated Im angry and heated The words I repeated I basically treated Like I was above em So Sure I had reasons Like runnings from demons But reasons are not an excuse I am the one who must choose I am responsible I was illogical I was should dying inside of a hospital I am who drank I am who drove I didnt think All on my own Nobody made me except for myself I will not put blame on anyone else
