Too Much

[Verse 1] I got a mind that never slows down, A thousand tabs open while I’m staring at the ground. I miss the little things you say, Then I hate myself for slipping away. You ask me why I seem so far, Even when I’m sitting right where you are. It ain’t that I don’t want to stay, It’s just my brain keeps pulling me away. [Pre-Chorus] And I know you see me trying, Even when I’m barely holding on. I keep my heart in the room, But my thoughts keep drifting on and on. [Chorus] I want to love you like I should, But my head makes it so hard. I’m here, then I’m gone, Trying to hold us with a shaking heart. I want to give you all my time, But I can’t always give what I feel. I’m not walking away, I’m just fighting what’s real. [Verse 2] You deserve the version of me That can listen, stay, and breathe. Instead I’m lost in the noise, Trying to be your man, trying to be your boy. I forget to call, I forget to text, Then I sit alone and regret the mess. You say “I need you,” and I do, I just don’t know how to always come through. [Pre-Chorus] And I know you get exhausted, Loving somebody hard to pin down. I wish I could be more steady, Wish I could hold the ground. [Chorus] I want to love you like I should, But my head makes it so hard. I’m here, then I’m gone, Trying to hold us with a shaking heart. I want to give you all my time, But I can’t always give what I feel. I’m not walking away, I’m just fighting what’s real. [Bridge] Sometimes I feel like lightning, All spark and no rest. Trying to be somebody You can trust with your best. If I go quiet, don’t read it as goodbye, I’m just trying to make my heart and mind align. [Final Chorus] I want to love you like I should, But my head makes it so hard. I’m here, then I’m gone, Trying to hold us with a shaking heart. I want to give you all my time, But I can’t always give what I feel. I’m not walking away, I’m just fighting what’s real. [Outro] If I seem hard to reach, Know I still care that deep. I’m just learning how to love With a mind that never sleeps.