[Intro — low close-mic talking] Some mornings feel normal Like I finally escaped myself Next morning the sunlight feel disrespectful [Verse 1 — conversational melodic rap] Some days I wake up cool Curtains open, let the whole sky through Coffee on the counter, phone ringing — I answer Laughing like I finally got my balance Next day don’t talk to me Even little sounds get exhausting to me Microwave beep sound like somebody yelling Air too thick, everybody overwhelming Yesterday I wanted everybody round me Today if you love me give me boundaries That’s the part I never learned to explain Why my good moods got such a short range You ever get tired of fighting yourself Before you even open your eyes? And I know it look confusing outside How I go from “slide through” to “don’t drive” Some mornings my chest feel weightless Some nights the silence press down Some versions of me want the world Some versions can’t leave the house [Pre-Chorus — melodic rap] I don’t know who waking up tomorrow The healed me or the one still hollow Half of me want your love Half want the room locked [Chorus — rhythmic melodic rap] Some days I wake up, nothing wrong Sun hit the room, I’m singing songs Next day don’t hit my phone Leave me alone, leave me alone Some days I want everybody close Next day I vanish without a trace Half of me want that love Half still want control Two different people Same skin, same soul [Verse 2 — deeper emotional delivery] Some days I’m outside Windows down, bass shaking all night Replying fast, calling everybody back Talking like the old me finally came back Next day I’m gone TV light, deadbolt locked, hoodie on Phone face down like bad news on the table Even “how you doing?” feel painful And it ain’t personal most times I shut down when my thoughts crowd up I know people probably take it wrong Like I stopped caring overnight somehow Truth is I be missing people while ignoring ’em Wanting love while avoiding it Wanting help while destroying it That contradiction been poisoning me Smiling in public then shutting down privately World think I’m healing, I just hide it quietly Yesterday I swore I was finally changing Tonight I cancelled everything again That’s why I stopped making promises quick I never know what version gon’ exist One day I’m calling everybody back Next day I disappear for weeks [Bridge — beat stripped down] Love me carefully My mind change colors by the hour Some days I carry everybody else Some days I barely move at all And that’s the scary part Nobody knows which version showing up Not even me [Final Chorus — emotional lift] Some days I wake up, nothing wrong Ride through the city with my favorite song Next day don’t call my phone Leave me alone, leave me alone Some days I want everybody close Next day I vanish and nobody knows Half of me wants peace Half won’t let go Two different people Same skin, same soul [Outro — exhausted talking] I think people call it mood swings But it feel bigger than that sometimes Like… I keep becoming tomorrow’s me Then trying to explain him later
