seven years of nightmares (alternate raw and depressing lo-fi remix)

[Intro] Seven years And the night still knows your name Seven years And I still wake up the same [Verse 1] Every time I close my eyes I'm back there again My mind rewrites the nightmare like it never wants to end I hear the chaos, then I wake before the morning light Heart racing in the darkness, trying to convince myself I'm alright Seven years have passed but grief doesn't own a clock Some nights it barely whispers, some nights it fucking knocks I know it's only memory twisting while I sleep But losing you left shadows that my tired mind still keeps [Pre-Chorus] Wake up Sit up Try to breathe again Same room Same dark Same memories in my head [Chorus] Seven years of nightmares Seven years of missing you Seven years of waking up Wishing none of it was true I'm depressed as fuck And I don't know what to do Every night my broken mind Keeps dragging me back to you Seven years of nightmares And I still fucking miss you [Post-Chorus] I miss you I miss you Seven years later I still miss you [Verse 2] Daylight comes and everybody thinks I'm doing fine They don't see the nights when grief starts fucking with my mind I learned how to smile when somebody says your name But underneath the surface I still carry all that pain I keep asking questions with no answers coming back Why my first real love became the loss I couldn't unpack I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know where I belong I just know seven years can feel impossibly long [Pre-Chorus] Wake up Sit up Tell myself I'm here One room One night Trying to outlast the fear [Chorus] Seven years of nightmares Seven years of missing you Seven years of waking up Wishing none of it was true I'm depressed as fuck And I don't know what to do Every night my broken mind Keeps dragging me back to you Seven years of nightmares And I still fucking miss you [Breakdown] I'm tired of the nightmares I'm tired of waking up like this I'm tired of seven fucking years Feeling like I never left it I miss you I miss you I fucking miss you I don't know what to do with all this pain I don't know how to make my head feel quiet again So I'm saying it out loud I'm not okay tonight I need somebody here Till I see the morning light [Bridge] The nightmare isn't you It's losing you again It's waking in a world Where I can't change how it ended I wish I could remember Only every good day Without my sleeping mind Pulling me back toward the pain But tonight I'll tell somebody I can't carry this alone I'll stay where I am heard Instead of hiding on my own [Build] Seven years Still here Seven years Still here I miss you Still here I'm hurting Still here [Final Chorus] Seven years of nightmares Seven years of missing you Seven years of waking up Wishing none of it was true I'm depressed as fuck But I know what I can do When the night gets overwhelming I'll let somebody help me through Seven years of nightmares And I'll always remember you [Final Post-Chorus] I miss you I miss you Seven years later I still miss you But morning comes Morning comes Even after nights like this [Outro] Seven years And I still wish you were here Tonight was bad So I'm not staying alone with it I'll talk to somebody I'll make it through the night