[VERSE 1] I can always tell when things are getting bad again I start sleeping with my hands against my chest Like if I hold my ribs together hard enough Nothing important can leave Everybody thinks I'm fearless I just stopped reacting normal a long time ago There’s a difference I go quiet for days at a time Then show up laughing too hard Like I didn't disappear on purpose [CHORUS] My ribs stick out more when I'm not doing good Nobody notices except the people who love me And honestly Sometimes I hate them for noticing at all I learned young how to make suffering look accidental How to say "I'm tired" When I mean "I am barely inside my body lately." [VERSE 2] I still keep water by the bed Even when I know I won't drink it I still buy groceries like I plan on being alive next month Some nights I sit on the kitchen floor Until the sun comes up Because going to sleep feels too much like giving up control And I know that sounds dramatic But it doesn’t feel dramatic when it's happening It just feels Tuesday-shaped [CHORUS] My ribs stick out more when I'm not doing good My clothes fit different when I want to disappear Everybody says I look pretty thinner Like that's not the worst thing you could say to somebody like me I don't want to be held gently I want someone to sit beside me Without trying to turn me into a lesson learned [BRIDGE] I think some people are born with a hole in them And they spend their whole life trying to fill it quietly Mine just got bigger over time And I don't think love fixes that I think it just makes somebody else hear the echo too [FINAL CHORUS] My ribs stick out like proof Like something trying to escape me Maybe that’s all grief really is Your body finding new ways to leave without dying And I'm still here Somehow Even now
