yea i cant take this no more [verse 1] why i feel like i been in this place before i just can take no more i just cant smile like im still me i just cant fake no more i tried to be all i can but that wasn’t enough for you i cant find love so i replace it with the cuts again i take from that bottle man its my only friend im so scaref that im gonna be alone again [verse 2] fake smile on my face i just cant pretend like i dont pretend, and my best friend is plotting on me now if god exists why isn’t he even trying to show me that this life is more than pain cause its hard to live when im dying inside and they say im worthless cause i dont do nothing no more, been burning and trying to pretend and teachers crooked like these politicians politics and learning, is there even a difference [verse 3] they report me cause im acting different who the fuck are they to judge criticizing cause im being different 40 ounces for the pain i ain’t been the same since i seen my dad cry mama i just hope you understand mama i cant take the pressure mama I’ve been trying my best to be a better child [chorus] you might know my story man but you dont even know my pain she was all i needed now this bottle is my Novocaine trying not too go insane now trying not to go insane now they say lately i ain’t been the same but they won’t ever know my pain [verse 4] and i know lately i aint been the same i just never really show my pain yea man i cant feel nothing no more fake love dont cut it no more homie I’ve been taking so much nothings staying in my system no more i cant even feel the pain inside i cant keep living in a lie yea i might be breathing like everyone else but i dont feel alive everyday man i hear the sirens blaring making me feel like god aint really hearing nowadays the kids just wanna kill no love in the streets, dont wanna feel what i felt when i heard my lil homie passed ill never get her back, but yeah i still know her souls roamin’ on the streets now i just hope she’s watching over me now now i just keep prayin’ to god but these demons never leave i, know i lost myself along the way i was just too scared to fade away now they all keep beggin’ me too stay but i cant be here another day so i keep taking from this bottle till i feel numb again ive been tempted by these drugs again i know i aint been the same mama said she just wanna see her child again and i just wanna see her smile again so i lie and say im okay but, ive been plottin’ on my suicide [chorus] and you might know my story man but you will never know my pain and she was all i needed now this lighter is my Novocaine trying not to go insane im trying not to go insane trying not to go insane they say lately i aint been the same but they wont ever know my pain my pain….
