## Verse 1 There's a version of me somewhere in a hospital White coat, clipboard, someone else's pain Learning how to hold a hand through difficult Learning how to say the things that still remain She studies late she passes every test She finds a quiet life in knowing what to do She never stood on any stage or second guessed She never gave a part of herself to you ## Pre-Chorus I wonder if she's happy I wonder if she's whole I wonder if she misses Something she never knows ## Chorus The nurse who never was She lives inside me still The girl who had a different plan Before I found this hill She took her careful hands And learned to disappear Into the version of myself That actually ended up here The nurse who never was ## Verse 2 My father wanted steady wanted certain Wanted something he could understand and hold Something on the other side of the curtain Not his daughter singing stories to be told I don't regret the turn the road decided But I visit her sometimes in quiet rooms The version of myself that never divided Between the life I chose and what I assumed ## Pre-Chorus I wonder if she's happy I wonder if she's whole I wonder if she misses Something she never knows ## Chorus The nurse who never was She lives inside me still The girl who had a different plan Before I found this hill She took her careful hands And learned to disappear Into the version of myself That actually ended up here The nurse who never was ## Bridge Both of us were trying Both of us were real Both of us were carrying More than we could feel She would have been good at it I know she would have been But I found something else In the space between ## Final Chorus The nurse who never was She lives inside me still The girl who had a different plan Before I found this hill She took her careful hands And gave them both to me And everything I do with them Is everything she'll never be The nurse who never was Was always part of me ## Outro The nurse who never was Still here Still here
