11. A Bit of 42

*hahaha A week isn't long enough to really do anything is it? * *Sometimes it takes a lifetime to understand things* *Sometimes it takes all that experience to finally make sense of anything* *This one is called A Bit of 42* I watched childhood slip away like smoke, no warning, just vanish. Memories linger, but they’re hollow—like I’m holding onto ghosts. Pain finds me in quiet moments, reminds me nothing’s fair, Life takes what it wants, and leaves you to deal with the silence. Love once burned so bright I thought it was forever, Turns out forever was just a lie I told myself. The promises we made are dust now—nothing left but the ache, And I wonder if it’s all just part of some cruel game. Lift me beyond the ache, Where the sky doesn’t ask why. Guide me through the wreckage, Where hope feels like a distant cry. In this endless night, I find a flicker— A fragile spark that fights to survive. A friend disappeared, like they were never real, Left me with questions I don’t ask aloud. Nothing makes sense in the silence they left behind, Some losses cut deeper than I ever wanted to admit. Time steals pieces of me I can’t recover, Moments fade into shadows I can’t find again. I cling to memories that are slipping through my fingers, Trying to hold on to what’s already gone. Dreams I buried are still haunting me— Questions of “why,” and “what was it all for?” In the dark, I see the truth Pain is just a story we tell ourselves to keep going. Lift me beyond the ache, Where the sky doesn’t ask why. Guide me through the wreckage, Where hope feels like a distant cry. In this endless night, I find a flicker— A fragile spark that fights to survive. Why does the sky let shadows fall so deep? Why do we learn to break and still keep moving? Is there a reason, some balance in this chaos? Or are we just wandering blind, searching for something that’s never there?