Stay

[Verse 1 – Spoken] Anthony, you were knocking But I was busy Doing nothing of substance I don't even remember what it was I told myself I’d call you next week And next week never showed up Your name looked so normal on my phone Like any other name Like it didn’t have gravity Like I wasn’t holding a lifeline Now all I have is a half-thought excuse And even I don't believe it [Verse 2] I was supposed to be The one who listened The one who knew How to say the thing That kept people from leaving But I... I think I wanted it to be someone else’s job this time I really fucked up I thought you'd wait Like I always did [Bridge] You didn’t leave a note But you didn’t have to You’d been writing it In fragments For months In unread texts In cancelled plans In that long silence After I joked about your "sad boy phase" You laughed But I remember how hollow it sounded [Chorus] I live in a house with no windows No way to see out No way for light to get in I talk to your ghost in the hallway I beg for a do-over But ghosts don’t barter They just accuse And wait [Verse 3] I screamed into the abyss; I sobbed into the flowing water of my shower; I asked the ceiling, again and again: “Why didn’t you tell me it was this bad?” But you did You did And I just Didn’t Listen [Outro] If I could go back I’d open the door I’d open every damn window And say: Stay