Five Months Gone”

(Verse 1) It’s been a month since your body left, But five since your soul disappeared, I watched your eyes turn into shadows While I drowned in all the fear. You stood beside me every morning But felt colder every night, Like somebody stole the person I knew And wore your skin just right. So I checked out slowly too, Not from hate, not from spite, I was trying to save what little was left Before I vanished from my own life. (Pre-Chorus) And the silence hit harder Than your footsteps leaving home, Because lonely starts long before You’re ever truly alone. (Chorus) Five months gone before goodbye, I was grieving while you still slept beside me at night. Now I’m digging through the wreckage, Trying to find what survived the fight. And somewhere underneath the damage, Under every bruise they left behind, I found the version of myself They spent years trying to hide. (Verse 2) Everybody wanted softer, Wanted quiet, wanted small, Every time I stood up taller Someone made sure I would fall. But pain became a doorway, And heartbreak became the flame, Now the girl inside the mirror Finally answers to her name. I stopped begging for permission To exist the way I am, Stopped shrinking for the comfort Of people who’d never understand. (Bridge — soft piano & violin) Maybe losing you Was the only way I could finally hear myself breathe… Maybe the ending Wasn’t death at all— Maybe it was me being freed. (Final Chorus) Five months gone before goodbye, Now the ashes glow like stars against the night. And even in the ruins I can feel myself come alive. No more cages made from silence, No more breaking just to survive, Because the version they buried years ago Finally clawed her way outside. (Outro — whispered) You left… But I stayed. And for the first time… I stayed for me.