Mourning Cursive - Dear You.

Dear you To whom this concerns Well it's been awhile I know I said I'd write and I didn't Please forgive me I just lost track of time And lost track of myself somewhere along the way I'm not even sure where I went Or if I was there to stay I'd like to tell you that I'm back And better than ever before But in truth I have no way of knowing If these words are real Or if the ink I'm spilling On this scrap paper Will even reach you where you lay But I'm going to keep writing Scribbling these letters Into words Into sentences Into paragraphs Hoping against hope That you have the ears and eyes To decipher and translate this nonsense I remember you saying How much you loved my cursive So I focus intently on each curl and each scripted swirl Painstakingly painting these words From the dripping ink off of my pen so you can understand That I don't just write these memories Without honorable intentions I know we haven't always seen eye to eye Or even agreed on the simple facts of life But I know you were there for me When I turned my back on all that came before me I couldn't help myself It felt like I was someone else Living a different life while I sat back Watched it afar from someplace else But I could see you Always beside me Forever standing ground Especially against those that stood to tear us down And I never said thank you Or acknowledged when you were around Please forgive me You have to know I didn't mean it I didn't know any better But I'm gonna try to set things right That's why I'm writing you this letter tonight So please forgive me I know they're only words Scribbled in cursive on a scrap piece of paper But they're all I really have to give So I hope it's enough to ease the pain And if we ever meet again I hope I can tell you how sorry I am in person Instead of through six feet of dirt and a closed casket As I lay this apology and flowers on your grave.