(Ba-ba-Bando on the beat..BANDO 7!) I remember all the pain that I had I remember the issues I dealt with coming up since the 8th for the kid already 5 years old talking and I'm ready to die kind of shit does that make sense bitch I just don't get the reality of this world what was going through my mind don't tell me I wasnt born with a curse on my soul at 5 years old already wanting to go have the fuck do that makes sense make it make sense cuz it don't make any to me and never since that day I've been fucked up in one way over another I never had a brother my mama cheated on my dad made me mad inside stayed away from the house got involved in the street started doing it wrong see what I'm telling you is what you do to your kids and knowingly half the time I know she ain't do what she do just to have a result in me being of motherfucking problem child should get wild all hard to smile maintaining barely stay insane I know I'm kind of started crazy insane psycho but shit I think it might just be all the same sometimes I feel so much pain but I feel happy in the rain dark thoughts cloud my brain sometimes I think about taking the Kurt Cobain route cock it back Glock 19 matter of fact put it to my head and get it over with get it over with trying to get it get it over with cuz this life ain't no good for me I've been cursed since I was just the itty bitty baby baby lately I've been thinking crazy if I go just maybe all of my baby might be okay I feel like I'm the one that be hinder when they like sleeping though I know that's not necessarily true because I know I would lay down my life here today to protect each and every one of them but at the same time I'm holding them back and hurting this so I know it deep down living feeling but they really resilient brilliant but still couple knuckleheads four boys two girls two out of the four boys wild child two of the other just emotionally gifted two girls my older girl kind of like her mama misunderstood for good reasons my other boy my oldest boy was kind of raised by my mama my mama loves him but the fucked up thing about it it is my other five children she can't stand them treat them like a dog treat them like they punching bags not necessarily punching in the physical way I'm talking about mentally talking shit a little in them blaming them for me and hating they Mama that shit is crazy this drama I tell Mama you supposed to be your Christian and that's how you treat my children your grandkids and you call that being righteous that's why I know all the all women the same never take blame for the point but the fake act like somebody else's always to blame even if they get caught in the wrong they still won't admit doing anything wrong they're trying to shift it manipulate and make you believe the crazy shit that they come out they face with I'm like saving bitch I ain't got no time to play with a bitch I don't give a damn if it's my granny my grandma my mama my daughter whoever these bitches is all this tank crazy just me crazy as me crazy as they could be but for some reason they think it's all justified just a lie tote this fire just in case the bitch try me tonight same very many he going to expire I keep rolling going forward like a mother fucking tire heat blood going through my pain getting crazy the rain shit get heated if you think that I'm playing I'm not what you saying how you want to handle this and if any fuck boy try to play with me I'm a dismantle a bitch light a candle let it burn down the wick you know about the woo lady then it'll make sense and if you don't but then it ain't meant for you just know that everybody play thank you spiritual warfare is real and get deeper than you think deep deeper than you think it get deep with anything deep deeper than you thank let's play Big Bank take small Bank big Bank take small Bank let's play let's see if you know some real shit when madness comes from sadness and sadness turns to rage and when you rage and blank out you crash out black out looking for the cash route to get the the fuck about this dirty Coke world we live in it's a dirty world but it keep on spinning spinning it's a dirty world that's why people got to keep on sending sending it ain't necessarily done out of hate you it's really done just trying to survive in the matrix it ain't really done out of hatred don't get it twisted I'm not talking about nothin other then the devil's demons beyond broken humans u understand wut im sayin aint no excuses for pedophiles rapists or taking advantage of the week and helpless all three they all should die the worst way Lord take em away from dis place I wonder why they're even here still breathing & alive anyway forgiveness in my heart dont exist for pure evil sorry Lord please forgive me but i'm still gonna swang dis chopper ok AK 47 that's my second favorite weapon right next 2 the Bible Lord good heart good soul but I can black out walk u down like Jason mask down so u dont kno who u facing
