[Verse 1] I used to tell you everything Now I rehearse what I can say I watch your face while I’m talking Trying to guess if you’ll pull away I say I’m fine before you ask me I laugh before the silence starts It’s strange how I became somebody Who apologizes for how I feel [Pre-Chorus] You never had to raise your voice To make me question what was real I spent so long defending you I forgot what I was allowed to feel [Chorus] I don’t recognize myself anymore I don’t know what I’m fighting for I used to trust the things I felt Now I need someone to tell me who I am You made me doubt the words I speak Made me ashamed of being weak And I hate what this has done to me I don’t recognize who I’m becoming [Verse 2] I don’t get close the way I used to I keep the honest parts inside When someone says they really want me I wonder what they’ll change their mind about I know that you are not beside me I know we’re finished, I know why But every time somebody loves me I look for reasons it’s a lie [Pre-Chorus] You never had to raise your voice To make me question what was real I spent so long defending you I forgot what I was allowed to feel [Chorus] I don’t recognize myself anymore I don’t know what I’m fighting for I used to trust the things I felt Now I need someone to tell me who I am You made me doubt the words I speak Made me ashamed of being weak And I hate what this has done to me I don’t recognize who I’m becoming [Bridge] Maybe I let you hurt me longer ’Cause leaving meant admitting why Maybe I kept calling it love ’Cause I was scared to call it a lie I’m not the man I was before you But I don’t want to hate him too He gave you more than he should have He did the best he knew to do [Final Chorus] I don’t recognize myself anymore But I won’t ask you what I’m worth I spent so long believing your version I forgot I had my own words You made me doubt the way I feel But you don’t get to make it real I’m still learning how to live with me And become someone I can believe [Outro] I don’t know who I’ll be When this stops following me But for the first time in so long I want to find out
