[Cold Open / Hook] I sleep in the clothes I left you in Like I’m keeping the crime scene warm I don’t miss who you are anymore I miss who I was before My friends say I’m doing better But they don’t see me at night Talking shit to the ceiling Like it owes me my life [Verse 1] There’s dishes in the sink And your ghost in the hall I keep buying groceries For somebody who won’t call I changed all the bedsheets Then slept on the floor ’Cause clean didn’t feel clean If you’d touched it before I don’t want revenge I don’t want you dead I just want one quiet morning Where you’re not in my head [Pre-Chorus] And I hate this apartment I hate this town I hate how your memory Still walks around [Chorus] I’m not angry tonight I’m just fucked up and tired I’m sick of calling it healing When it feels like a fire I don’t want you back I want my body to learn That love isn’t a house Where you wait for the burn I’m not angry tonight I’m just trying to live With the version of me That you didn’t kill [Verse 2] I still check the weather Where you moved on to Like pain has a zip code Like that brings me closer to you I laugh at the wrong times I drink water at 3 I answer “I’m fine” Like a fucking machine Some days I forgive you Some days I hope you choke Some days I miss your hands And hate myself most [Bridge / Breakdown] Nobody tells you How stupid grief gets How you can hate someone And still smell their neck How you can block them And still want a sign How leaving can save you And ruin your life [Final Chorus] I’m not angry tonight I’m just fucked up and tired I’m sick of calling it healing When it feels like a fire I don’t want you back I want my body to learn That love isn’t a house Where you wait for the burn I’m not angry tonight I’m just trying to live With the version of me That you didn’t kill [Outro] I sleep in the clothes I left you in Like I’m keeping the crime scene warm I don’t miss who you are anymore I miss who I was before.
