You know what's crazy I don't think you ever understood what you did You just kept saying you were sorry And I kept believing you You knew what I'd been through before I let you in You knew how long it took to trust somebody again You told me you'd be different, said you knew what that was worth I never asked you to fix me, just don't be another hurt At first, it was an argument, a sorry and a kiss Then a week of being careful till we ended up like this You'd say you never meant it, I'd say I know, it's alright Then I'd lie awake beside you going over it all night And every time I brought it up, you said I couldn't let it go So I started keeping quiet about things you ought to know I'd tell our friends we're doing fine, they'd ask me how you've been And I'd get halfway through the answer, trying not to let them in You say you miss the old me, like he up and went away But he was here the whole time with less and less to say Now I practice every sentence before you walk through the door I don't even recognize what I'm apologizing for And I know you'll say you're sorry Like you always seem to do But you never seem to notice What it's doing to me too You say you miss the old me And I miss him just as much He would take you at your word Now I struggle just to trust And you wonder why I'm leaving Like you can't see what I see You said that you would change But all you changed was me All you changed was me I know I wasn't perfect, I was stubborn, I got loud I've said some things I take back, things I'm not proud of now But when I knew I'd hurt you, I would own it, make amends Not apologize on Monday just to do it all again You'd tell me that you loved me, and I know you meant it too But there's a difference between loving and the things you put me through You could cry and say you're sorry, swear you'd never make me cry Then we'd find ourselves right back there, just a different day and time I got used to taking blame for things I didn't even do Just to end another argument I couldn't make it through And the funny thing about it, I was proud of how I'd cope Didn't see that I was losing everything that gave me hope I defended you to people who could see I wasn't fine Made excuses for your actions, even started making mine And I stayed because I loved you, that's the part you never see I kept trying to save us while you were changing me I used to think that staying Meant I loved you more than most But I was losing who I was Trying not to let you go You say you miss the old me And I miss him just as much He would take you at your word Now I struggle just to trust And you wonder why I'm leaving Like you can't see what I see You said that you would change But all you changed was me All you changed was me I was held together with sticks and glue I wasn't hiding any of that from you I told you about the damage, told you what I'd been through You said it didn't matter, you were different, I believed you I wasn't asking for a rescue, never asked to be saved Just don't promise me tomorrow if you're doing things the same I came with a past, I didn't come with a debt You don't get to hold my history over my head And the things that I've survived made me who I am If you can't accept that, don't pretend you understand You knew exactly who I was before you took my hand So if you can't stand beside me, draw your line in the sand And I hate that I still love you, hate that part of me remains Cause I'd probably still answer if you called me up today But missing you and needing you aren't nearly quite the same And I can't keep losing pieces waiting for you to change You say you miss the old me God, I miss him just as much He gave you every part of him And never thought it'd cost this much I gave you every chance Till there was nothing left to give You said that you would change But I changed just to live And now you look at me Like you don't know who I used to be You said that you would change But all you changed was me I think that's what hurts the most You got to keep being you And I had to become somebody else Just to make it through loving you
