Nobody Understands This Pain

# NOBODY UNDERSTANDS THIS PAIN **(Verse 1)** Everybody sees me breathing, nobody sees the damage, I learned how to hide the hurt so well I almost can't manage, They ask me how I'm doing, I say "good" and keep it moving, But they don't see the nights when the memories start intruding. They don't know what it's like waking up and remembering, That somebody you loved ain't coming back, ever again, They don't know how a birthday can turn into a breakdown, Or how hearing someone's name can make your whole chest cave down. They say, "Be strong," like strength means never crying, Like grieving means you gotta keep your emotions confined, But I'm tired of pretending that I'm perfectly okay, I'm still trying to learn how to survive another day. I got people around me, but somehow I'm alone, 'Cause nobody can feel the exact weight that I hold, They can tell me that they care, they can sit beside me, But they can't feel the hole where my brother used to be. **(Hook)** Nobody understands this pain, Nobody knows what it takes, To wake up every morning knowing You can't bring him back again. They can tell me time will heal, They can tell me I'll be okay, But until they lose somebody they love, They'll never understand this pain. **(Verse 2)** I've gotten good at changing the subject when they ask, Good at putting on a smile and hiding underneath that mask, Good at saying "I'm alright" when I'm barely holding steady, Good at looking like I'm ready when I'm nowhere fucking ready. 'Cause grief doesn't follow schedules, doesn't care about the date, It can hit you in the middle of a crowded room and take your breath away, One minute I'm laughing, next I'm staring at the wall, Remembering that you're never gonna call me anymore. Sometimes I get angry and I don't even know why, Sometimes I feel guilty, sometimes I just wanna cry, Sometimes I miss you so much that I can't form a sentence, Sometimes I hate myself for having moments where I forget it. Then something brings you back, and the guilt comes rushing in, Like I betrayed your memory by living for a minute, But I know you'd never want me trapped inside the past, You'd probably tell me, "Live your life, bro, don't make this your last." **(Hook)** Nobody understands this pain, Nobody knows what it takes, To wake up every morning knowing You can't bring him back again. They can tell me time will heal, They can tell me I'll be okay, But until they lose somebody they love, They'll never understand this pain. **(Bridge)** So don't tell me how to grieve, Don't tell me when to let go, You weren't there when I got the call, You don't know what I know. I'm not asking for an answer, I'm not asking you to fix me, Just sit beside me in the silence And let me miss him peacefully. **(Final Hook)** Nobody understands this pain, And maybe nobody ever will, But I'm learning how to carry it Without letting it kill me. I'll miss him when I'm laughing, I'll miss him when it rains, I'll miss him when I'm winning, I'll miss him through the pain. Nobody understands this pain, But I know one thing is true, I would've taken all this suffering If it meant I got more time with you.