Growin' Up at Forty-four

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[Instrumental Intro]

[Verse 1]
I spent too many years here in my shell,
Just tryin' to survive in my own hell.
Too scared most days to even walk outside,
I can't recall how many tears I've cried.
My only friends were those I met online,
Most I will never meet, and that's just fine.
I came to be content with what I've got,
I don't take time to dwell on what I'm not.

[Chorus]
I took a chance and stepped out on my own,
And found a world that I had never known.
I quit the drink that used to numb the pain,
And slowly started thinkin' clear again.
I see the ways I let my life stand still,
And how he kept me small against my will.
Now every step I take shows somethin' more,
Feels like I'm growin' up at forty-four.

[Verse 2]
He liked me best when I would stay at home,
Just curled up here and waiting all alone.
He kept the bottles lined up on the shelf,
And laughed at me believing in myself.
He'd say the world outside would tear me down,
And that I shouldn't take a chance in town.
But now at last I've finally come to see,
The most important thing in life is me.

[Bridge]
One day I looked and barely knew my face,
And I was slowly dying in this place,
But fear ain't love, and chains ain't loyalty,
And I deserve the life he kept from me.

[Outro]

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Lyrics by Steven R. Drennon, ©️ 2026 Lyrics may not be remixed, used as prompts for AI, or otherwise reproduced without consent. Please check out my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@firstep3 [Instrumental Intro] [Verse 1] I spent too many years here in my shell, Just tryin' to survive in my own hell. Too scared most days to even walk outside, I can't recall how many tears I've cried. My only friends were those I met online, Most I will never meet, and that's just fine. I came to be content with what I've got, I don't take time to dwell on what I'm not. [Chorus] I took a chance and stepped out on my own, And found a world that I had never known. I quit the drink that used to numb the pain, And slowly started thinkin' clear again. I see the ways I let my life stand still, And how he kept me small against my will. Now every step I take shows somethin' more, Feels like I'm growin' up at forty-four. [Verse 2] He liked me best when I would stay at home, Just curled up here and waiting all alone. He kept the bottles lined up on the shelf, And laughed at me believing in myself. He'd say the world outside would tear me down, And that I shouldn't take a chance in town. But now at last I've finally come to see, The most important thing in life is me. [Chorus] I took a chance and stepped out on my own, And found a world that I had never known. I quit the drink that used to numb the pain, And slowly started thinkin' clear again. I see the ways I let my life stand still, And how he kept me small against my will. Now every step I take shows somethin' more, Looks like I'm growin' up at forty-four. [Bridge] One day I looked and barely knew my face, And I was slowly dying in this place, But fear ain't love, and chains ain't loyalty, And I deserve the life he kept from me. [Chorus] I took a chance and stepped out on my own, And found a world that I had never known. I quit the drink that used to numb the pain, And slowly started thinkin' clear again. I see the ways I let my life stand still, And how he kept me small against my will. Now every step I take shows somethin' more, I'm finally growin' up at forty-four. [Outro]

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