I know what you want me to say. But if I say it... it's real. And if it's real, then I can't take it back. So maybe if I just keep singing Maybe you’ll hear it without the word. I wrote a letter I’ll never send Folded guilt between the bends Scribbled lines I won’t defend You’re all I never said… I stare too long from behind the glass Watching every moment pass Each silence screams what won’t outlast But I still won’t say it You could just say it… (But what if it ends everything?) (Or what if it begins something?) You already have. Just not with words. Say it! Even if it breaks the spell Even if it hurts like hell Even if I lose myself (Say it!) But I still won’t Not when it scars my speech Not when it makes me weak I'll whisper it in melody instead I said I was fine, didn’t I? Smiled like I rehearsed it. But inside I was screaming it And you didn’t even blink. Maybe that's why I wanted to say it more! I said "never" but I meant "not yet" I wore sarcasm like a safety net But you pulled it down with just a look And suddenly I was out of breath You broke in through all my gloom Carved your name in every room Now I’m drowning in perfume I swore I’d never breathe again Say it! Even if I come undone Even if I’m not the one Even if I can’t outrun Say it! But I still won’t (Still can’t) (Still scared) "Say it." (It’ll ruin everything.) "Say it." (It’ll make it real.) "Say it." (I can’t breathe.) "Say it." (…I want to.) Do you hear it in every verse I sang? Every “almost”? Every “maybe”? Every unspoken promise curled in chorus? You’ve always known. So why am I still so scared? Say it! Even if I break in two Even if I don’t pull through Even if it’s not for you Say it! But I still won’t (Still won’t...) But maybe one day When you’re not listening When I’m not afraid I’ll say it without singing. "Say it." (Still won’t.) "Say it." (...I know.)
