Yeah, I wake up every morning, feel the weight upon my chest Tell myself I'm doing better, but I know that's not the best Version of the truth I'm living, got me wondering what's real Love my wife, she's everything, but there's something I can't heal Voices in my head won't stop, they keep pulling me back To a place I don't belong, but my brain is under attack Dopamine's a liar, got me hooked on what I hate Trauma wrote the script when I was eight, now I can't escape And they don't understand the war inside my mind How pleasure mixed with pain can make you blind I'm not who they think, I'm not what this defines Just a kid who never got to draw the lines I'm chasing ghosts, chasing ghosts Running from myself but that's what hurts the most They say I'm something that I'm not supposed to be But this ain't identity, it's just my history Chasing ghosts, chasing ghosts Every time I think I'm free, I need another dose Of something I don't want but can't let go I'm just chasing ghosts, yeah, I'm chasing ghosts Intrusive thoughts are killing me, they're playing on repeat Memories I didn't ask for got me feeling incomplete Society will label me, put me in a box But they weren't there when innocence was something that he robbed I'm attracted to my wife, that's the truth, that's what's real But the wiring got corrupted, now I don't know what to feel When the urge comes creeping back like a shadow in the night Tell myself I'm stronger, put my knknuckles up and fight 'Cause they don't understand the shame I carry round How trauma makes a prison with no sound I'm screaming but nobody hears the pain Of being held hostage by your own brain I'm chasing ghosts, chasing ghosts Running from myself but that's what hurts the most They say I'm something that I'm not supposed to be But this ain't identity, it's just my history Chasing ghosts, chasing ghosts Every time I think I'm free, I need another dose Of something I don't want but can't let go I'm just chasing ghosts, yeah, I'm chasing ghosts And I'm tired of the cycle, tired of the shame Tired of feeling like I'm going insane This ain't about desire, this is survival mode A child's brain that learned the wrong code I didn't choose this, it chose me But that don't mean it's my identity I'm more than what was done, more than what I feel I'm fighting for the version of myself that's real I'm chasing ghosts, chasing ghosts But maybe I can learn to let 'em go They say I'm something that I'm not supposed to be But this ain't who I am, it's what was done to me Chasing ghosts, chasing ghosts One day I'll be free, won't need another dose Of something I don't want, I'll finally let go Stop chasing ghosts, yeah, stop chasing ghosts I'm not my trauma, I'm not my past I'm not the shadows that they cast I'm just a man who's trying to heal Fighting every day for what is real
