¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸(✿◡‿◡)¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸ I say “I’m fine” like it’s my job Smile preloaded, factory-sob You give me gold, I give you static Heart says thank you, mouth goes sarcastic I rehearse gratitude in my head It comes out wrong, slightly dead If love’s a gift, I lost the note I meant “I care,” I said a joke ¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸(✿◡‿◡)¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸ I’m not ungrateful, I’m just weird I feel too much, then disappear I say “cool” when I mean “stay” And laugh it off the worst way ¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸(✿◡‿◡)¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸ I’m thankful, yeah, just bad at showing it I build walls out of compliments Wrap my feelings in irony It’s safer if you don’t see me I’m grateful, I swear, I just don’t clap I panic, joke, then change the app If love’s a language, I stutter in it Say “thanks” too late, then overthink it ¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸(✿◡‿◡)¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸ You held me up when I was low I said “same” like you should know You read my silence, that’s unfair I never learned how to say “I care” I collect favors like unpaid debt Smile too fast, instant regret If kindness knocks, I play it cool Like I didn’t need it—like a fool ¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸(✿◡‿◡)¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸ I don’t cry, I deflect instead Make a pun, then lie in bed If I ghost, it’s not goodbye I just don’t know how to reply ¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸(✿◡‿◡)¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸ I’m thankful, yeah, just bad at showing it I turn soft moments into jokes on it Call it humor, call it defense Call it fear in a party dress I’m grateful, I swear, I just don’t bow I feel it later, not right now By the time I say what you meant to me You’ve already stopped believing me ¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸(✿◡‿◡)¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸ If I tease you, it’s affection If I vanish, it’s reflection If I laugh when it gets too real That’s me trying not to feel I don’t say “thank you” out loud But I replay it, deep and proud On a loop, inside my chest Where I keep the things I meant ¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸(✿◡‿◡)¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸ I’m thankful, yeah, just bad at showing it I mean every word I don’t admit If I don’t say it, please assume I care in ways I can’t consume I’m grateful, messy, awkward, true I just don’t know what to do With all this love I never learned How to return ¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸(✿◡‿◡)¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸
