[Intro: 8 Bars. A hollow, metallic wind sound. A single, low Piano note strikes repeatedly like a death knell. A deep, distorted Synth drone fades in underneath.] [Verse 1] [Vocals: Spoken word. Deep, dry, and terrifyingly calm. Very close to the mic] You can build a life, follow every single plan And then watch it burn to ash across the land But of that scenario, I have no fear... Cause the worst threat in my life is standing right here Unstoppable, I hunger and I thirst Give in to the bottle, let it do its worst Unstoppable... I must. [Interlude] [Baritone Saxophone plays a low, foghorn-like blast. Metallic percussion clanks in the distance] [Verse 1 - Part 2] [The Piano adds a discordant melody] But first I drag you back to where the rot began Thirteen years old, a boy pretending to be man In a park with six, I drained my very first glass Felt like a king, the ruler of the grass If I could, I’d burn the tape, erase the scene Had I known King Alcohol would intervene To occupy my life, to sabotage the soul I had no clue of his true and wicked role It was more than just a laugh, a way to play Comfort for the mob... for others, judgment day [Vocals: Voice drops to a growl] A bitter remedy to fill the hole inside And for years I didn't know where I reside Was I the happy drunk? Or the broken son? Always at the feast until the rising sun But in the morning, the memory was dead What I did, what I spoke, the life I bled So at eighteen I realized the cost If I keep doing this... everything is lost. [Chorus] [Music shifts. A slow, heavy 'Doom Jazz' drum beat enters. Low Strings swell ominously] [Vocals: Crooning, melodic but off-key and mournful] Yet here I stand at the bar now Mindset impulsive, broken vow Tonight I want to be God above Tomorrow destroyed, no peace, no love Drink five... and I drink ten... Is there anyone to explain to men? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why am I so destructive? [Verse 2] [Music strips back to just the industrial drone and a heartbeat kick drum] [Vocals: Faster, manic, whispering aggressively] I take what I can get, I swallow it down Little speed, little X, the clown of the town Captain Morgan with a stutter in his speech The powder makes me angry, out of reach Do five, and I do ten Until I feel nothing, see nothing again Why? Why? Why? Why? Why am I so destructive? [Bridge / The AA Meeting] [Piano returns, playing heavy block chords. The atmosphere is stifling] [Vocals: Tired, resigned, cynical] Hello, I am Yello... and I am a slave It’s shit to confess with one foot in the grave I'm sick of the lies, the camouflage art Sick of playing a fictional part Easier to tell it as a fable, you see Cause it's hard to say: "There is no hope for me" I tried to hit the brakes, I tried to resign Became a workaholic just to toe the line But it crawled back: the drinks, the lines, the whores As long as I use, I’m locking all the doors I cannot trust myself, I am the enemy That’s why love always dies in my custody [Saxophone Feature] [Saxophone Solo: 8 Bars. Not a melody, but a series of low, dissonant honks and heavy breathing sounds, layered over screeching industrial noise.] [Pre-Chorus] [Vocals: Spoken, trembling with suppressed rage] Shame... Guilt... Fear... it's no life to live. Certain things to myself I can never forgive. But I drag myself on, head up in the rain Recovery is the only way to kill the pain See, I didn't choose the grief or the loss The reason for this shit, the heavy cross But making myself small won't settle the score... [Vocals: Shouting suddenly] No one can fix it! That is my war! [Chorus] [Heavy, slow, funeral march tempo. Orchestral Basses playing loud drones] Yet here I stand at the bar now... Mindset impulsive, broken vow Tonight I want to be God above Tomorrow destroyed, no peace, no love Drink five... and I drink ten... [Voice breaks/cracks] Is there anyone to explain to men? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why am I so destructive? [Outro] [The music dissolves into static noise and a faint piano echo] [Vocals: A low, dying mumble] Why am I so destructive? Why? [Sound of a heavy door slamming shut] [Silence]
