Some mornings I wake up Jaw locked tight Staring down that cheap little martyr In the bathroom light Talking sweet like hope was bluff Selling me survival tricks Like getting by was a religion Or a plastic crucifix And I almost believe her Almost take the dare That tonight won’t gut me open Won’t leave me stripped bare Then the panic starts crawling Under my skin That sweet little sickness Comes walking back in Half-smile Half-threat Pretty-girl damage Dressed to forget same face same ache same beautiful mistake black lace, bad taste kiss me like danger down down down through the glitter and rot down down down give me all the poison you’ve got I go down down down into the smoke and sweat again Same sharp little prayer Same beautiful end Cheap wings, cold sheets Hands shaking Like she might just love me back Some nights I walk laughing High heels mean Like I own every filthy little alley Every ruined dream They called it light addiction Like warmth was some disease Like every spark worth keeping Burned holes through quiet things Still the shadows keep on twitching At the edges of my sleep Everybody wants salvation Nobody wants the mess Everybody says “forever” Till forever second-guessed same face same ache same beautiful mistake black lace bad taste kiss me like danger down down down through the glitter and rot down down down all the poison you’ve got I go down down down Same sharp kiss Same dangerous wish Blooming too soon Your contour slipping through my hands Still chasing something That never learned to stand Called it starvation Like I’d swallowed all the dark Funny thing coming from someone Too scared to leave a mark You wore your sorrow beautifully Like royalty in decline But grief looks ugly up close And so did mine… down down down through the glitter and rot down down down what have we got? Same white room Same goddamn moon Same wreck of a face Yeah I go down down down through the glitter and rot down down down all the poison you’ve got
