生きて、ただ息をしたい (To Live, I Just Want to Breathe)

"The English lyrics are listed below after the Japanese lyrics." 目を閉じたまま　朝をやりすごせたら そんな願いも　浮かんでは消えてく うまく吸えなくて　胸の奥がきしむ ただ静かにいたい　それだけなのにね 痛みの理由さえ　うまく言えなくて 言葉にするたび　遠くなる気がした わたしの中だけ　響いているような 小さな呼吸を　抱いて朝を見る ただ息をしたい ちゃんと息をしたい それだけのことが　こんなにも遠い 朝が来るたびに また置いていかれて それでもこの胸は　まだ痛みながら 音のそばで　たしかに生きている 何も変わらない　そんな日もあるけど 止まりきれなくて　今日も時間は進む やさしいふりさえ　できない瞬間に からだの重さだけ　妙に本当だった ほどけないままの　夜を引きずっても まぶしさの中に　答えなんてなくて それでもわたしは　消えたいんじゃなくて 少しだけ普通に　息がしたいだけ ただ息をしたい ちゃんと息をしたい それだけのことを　願ってしまう朝 痛みがあるまま 終われないままで それでもこの痛み　まだ残しながら 音の中で　たしかに生きている きれいな希望じゃ　なくてもかまわない 救いと言えるほど　やさしくなくていい ただここにあると　言えるものひとつ 胸の奥で揺れる　この呼吸があれば ただ息をしたい 今日を越えていたい うまくできなくて　それでもかまわない 朝が来るたびに また揺れてしまうけど わたしのこの痛みも　消えない鼓動も 音といっしょに　たしかに生きている ******************** If I could close my eyes And let the morning pass me by Even that small wish now Comes and fades away from sight I can’t seem to breathe right Something aches deep in my chest I just want to be still That is all I ever ask Even the reason why I hurt is hard for me to say Every word I speak out Only feels more far away Like inside of my heart There’s a breath that only I hear Holding that little breath I look up and face the day I just want to breathe I just want to breathe right Something so simple feels So impossibly far Every time morning comes It leaves me behind again Still this aching heart of mine Goes on living by the sound Nothing really changes There are days that feel the same Still I cannot fully stop Time keeps moving on again In the moments when I Cannot even fake a smile Only the weight I feel In my body feels so real Dragging all of that night Still unravelling behind me In the morning brightness There is not a single answer Still it isn’t that I Really want to disappear I just want for once to Breathe a little more like me I just want to breathe I just want to breathe right That is all I ask for When the morning comes again With the pain still staying With no ending in my hands Still I leave this hurt in me And I’m living in the sound It doesn’t have to be A beautiful kind of hope It doesn’t have to feel Like a kindness called rescue If there is only one Thing I know is truly here It is this trembling breath Deep within my chest tonight I just want to breathe I want to make it through today Even if I can’t do it That can still be all right Every time morning comes I still waver in that light Even all this pain in me Even this unquiet beat Still together with the sound I am truly living here