LOST IN THE CLOUDS [Verse 1] Thirteen years old Flat on my back Green grass beneath me Blue overhead Clouds moving slow Sun in my eyes Whole world above me Wide open sky Anybody passing Would’ve thought I was fine Just some kid in the grass Killing a little time But I wasn’t watching clouds I wasn’t counting birds I was somewhere much darker With thoughts I had no words for [Pre-Chorus] The sky was right there But I couldn’t get through Nobody could see What my mind was doing to me [Chorus] Lost in the clouds But not the ones in the sky They were white, they were moving They were passing me by I was lost in the clouds That were filling my mind Sun shining down And I couldn’t find the light Nobody knew Nobody could tell A boy could look peaceful And be living in hell Lost in the clouds With the whole world in sight Everything bright around me Everything dark inside [Verse 2] I didn’t know the world Didn’t know myself Didn’t know what death was Didn’t know anything else I only knew waking Meant another day Another day carrying What wouldn’t go away And the thoughts kept coming Quiet and slow Not like some explosion More like sinking below How does a kid get there? How does it get that bad? How does thirteen become The oldest you’ve ever felt? You don’t tell anybody You don’t know what to say You just keep looking normal While something eats you away [Pre-Chorus] The sun was still warm The grass was still green Nothing in the picture Showed what couldn’t be seen [Chorus] Lost in the clouds But not the ones in the sky They were white, they were moving They were passing me by I was lost in the clouds That were filling my mind Sun shining down And I couldn’t find the light Nobody knew Nobody could tell A boy could look peaceful And be living in hell Lost in the clouds With the whole world in sight Everything bright around me Everything dark inside [Verse 3] There were days I thought Maybe I could make it stop Not because I understood dying I just wanted out That’s the part that stays with me How young I really was A kid can lose the world Before he knows what losing does And nobody saw it That’s what haunts me the most You can stand beside somebody And still never get close I could laugh I could answer I could walk through the day While somewhere behind my eyes I was trying to get away [Bridge — stripped down] Blue sky White clouds Green grass Warm sun A child underneath it Coming undone No blood on the ground No warning sign Just a storm with no weather Inside a boy’s mind [Final Chorus] Lost in the clouds But not the ones in the sky Those clouds kept moving Mine stayed inside The sun never left I just couldn’t see light The whole world was living Right in front of my eyes Nobody knew Nobody could tell A boy could look peaceful And be living in hell Lost in the clouds With nowhere to hide Everything bright around me Everything dark inside [Outro] Thirteen years old Looking up at the sky Nobody saw the clouds I carried inside.
