You asked me how I'm doing I said, “Fine, I guess” Meanwhile there's a thousand words Doing cartwheels in my head I knew exactly what I meant At least I think I did But somewhere between my brain and mouth The whole damn message quit Give me a minute Give me a day I'll find the perfect words Just not while you're looking at me that way I'm neurospicy My brain won't let things be One little thought can turn into A whole damn universe to me I can write you a thousand words But ask me what I mean And suddenly my vocabulary Has packed its bags and leaves Give me a pen, I'll tell you everything Give me a voice, I disappear Maybe I'm not bad at feeling things Maybe my head works different here I'm neurospicy 🌶️ When an idea gets inside my head It doesn't wait its turn It starts a little fire And I have to make it burn I tell myself, “Tomorrow” My brain says, “Absolutely not” Three hours disappear And suddenly it's four o'clock The dishes can wait The shower can wait The whole damn world can too There's a brand new universe inside my head And apparently I've got things to do I know I'm supposed to sleep But this thought won't let me go So if I have to finish it tonight Well… now you know I'm neurospicy My brain won't let things be One little thought can turn into A whole damn universe to me I forget to eat Forget to sleep Forget the laundry on the floor I disappear inside my head And somehow still feel everything more I'm neurospicy A little hard to explain My mouth gets stuck on simple words While my heart feels everything Sometimes I live inside my head For days and don't come out The world keeps moving without me While I'm figuring something out I rehearse conversations That already happened twice Come up with brilliant answers Usually three days late And no, I don't feel less I think I might feel more I carry people's feelings Like they're knocking at my door I may not always say it right But just because I can't express it Doesn't mean it's not there I come with a manual. You probably should have read it first. Warning, don't interrupt the hyperfocus. Warning, I may forget what time it is. Please allow extra processing before expecting a reply. There's a troubleshooting section for the days I don't know why. I'm neurospicy My brain is never quiet Give me one little thought And watch me start a riot I'll forget the time I'll lose the day I'll build a world inside my brain And when I finally come back down I'll probably do it all again I'm neurospicy And I'm learning that's okay I don't always speak my feelings But I write them anyway Give me a pen, I'll tell you everything Give me some time, I'll get there Maybe I'm not bad at feeling things I just speak a different language here So if you're wondering how I work… There's a manual. It's just… …really fucking long. 🌶️
