These days you make me feel These days you make me feel…. I’d almost forgotten how to feel But this is how you make me feel… Normally I’d be dead by now And I still fucking wish I was so tired of feeling alone knowing no one cares if I do I could say so many things But I’m so tired of pointing at you I’m the one who I hate, I guess And So do you, I wish it wasn’t true There’s always a reason why these feelings are my fault There’s always going to be another reason it’s my fault I know that half of these reasons are true But it doesn’t Matter if I try to change what I do You’re not here Even in the same room You don’t know what that means Communication is doomed We don’t speak A language that we both know So why try It never helped and we know Why even try to change at all….. I’m on my own, I don’t care who even knows I’m on my own, I will tell them all she tried, even if it is a lie, I’d rather die than let them see the she I’ve known, I been on my own, longer than you’d even believe But being me is a curse and worse is that I know it would be easier to just stop but I won’t take less than I deserve to receive There’s always gotta be another fight It seems to make you feel like you are so strong And I can’t fucking stop myself from reacting Even when I know it’s wrong You may be wrong I may be wrong it don’t matter you’ve already decided that I’m wrong So why bother even trying my silence is the only weapon I have got Why even try to change at all…. Everybody loves you! I fucking made sure of it. And you know that shit’s true You’ll still deny it, deny the problems that you create, explain why it’s my fault, because that’s what you do, Acting like it’s not too fucking late to take anything back, just make another attack, remember it’s ON ME Because in the end you get to walk away and say everything that happened was the fault of anyone but you Why even try to change at all…. I hit at least two dozen patches tryna find a four leaf just for you While you were busy hating all of me You’ll call this song I’m writing a weapon against you Because that’s exactly what you’ve come to think of me I kept searching in the dark ignoring my half frozen feet But I didn’t want to come back to our room My shoes were back there and so were you so I said fuck it Slipped on my slides and walked into the gloom
