[Intro] [acoustic guitar, steady rhythmic strumming] [Verse 1] Maybe I was too young to fully understand So I never learned what love looked like from a steady pair of hands I never trusted easy I was waiting for the turn You can leave a house behind you and still carry what you learned I'm my father's daughter but I'm nothing like him at all Then I hear him in the way I speak whenever my defenses fall And I hate how anger finds me before I know what it means I've spent half my life trying to get him out of me [Instrumental Turnaround] [Verse 2] Then I found somebody I thought I could understand You were hurting, I was certain I could love you where you stand You never laid your hands on me and that's something I'm grateful for But I should've known how bad it was when I saw you punch the door I don't regret loving you I know that you needed it But the way you treated me made me feel like a little kid And something deep inside of me still says you're not better now I'm sorry that I couldn't help I'm so glad I made it out [Pre-Chorus] Still some nights my body doesn't know What my mind already knows [Chorus] I'm crying on my mama's floor Why don't you want this anymore? And I'm craving you to change for me You say, "I hear you and I love you" But my heart, it hurts for you And I just cannot give you what you need Am I too much? Am I enough? You said you wouldn't give up Now I'm on my knees praying to God you talk to me Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind And far out of my bloodstream [Instrumental Break] [acoustic guitar, softer strumming] [Verse 3] I used to call it patience when I stayed another day Made excuses for your silence found a reason I should wait I thought loving someone harder might make everything come right Like I could keep you from becoming who you were when you would fight But I know that kind of thinking I know where I learned it from Mistaking fear for loyalty and staying when I should've run Now every time I miss you I remind myself again I don't have to keep on bleeding just to prove I understand [Pre-Chorus] Still some nights my body doesn't know What my mind already knows [Chorus] I'm crying on my mama's floor Why don't you want this anymore? And I'm craving you to change for me You say, "I hear you and I love you" But my heart, it hurts for you And I just cannot give you what you need Am I too much? Am I enough? You said you wouldn't give up Now I'm on my knees praying to God you talk to me Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind And far out of my bloodstream [Bridge] Maybe love isn't staying until there's nothing left Maybe leaving doesn't mean I loved you any less Maybe I can miss you without wanting you again Maybe what I carry doesn't have to be who I am I'm my father's daughter That much will always be true But I don't have to become him And I don't have to save you [Instrumental Pause] [Final Chorus] I cried there on my mama's floor Asking what you wanted anymore Begging you to change for me You said, "I hear you and I love you" And I know some part of you did But love can't always give us what we need I wasn't too much I was enough You were the one who gave up So I won't stay on my knees praying that you'll talk to me I'm learning how to let you stay behind Till you're out of my bloodstream [Outro] Out of my bloodstream Not all at once Not clean Just a little less of you inside of me [acoustic guitar slows] [End]
