I wake up to the same damn sound Same crack in the ceiling staring me down Same ache stitched into my spine Same hour pretending it’s time I know the script, I know the cues Know which lies I’m supposed to use Even my anger clocks itself Like I rehearsed it on a shelf I’ve tried being soft I’ve tried being mean Tried tearing the pages Tried staying clean Different masks Same reflection Every choice bends back to the same direction Same day Same breath Same weight on my chest Same words Same skin Same place I’ve been Hit repeat Hold still Call it fate Call it will If this is living Then I’m learning how to kill the loop I’ve memorized the weather and the fear I know what breaks before it’s here I bleed just enough to feel alive Then wake up healed like I never tried Every lesson half-learned Every scar erased Every scream loops back Without a trace I don’t forget I don’t forgive I remember everything Except how this ends Same day Same fight Same sun that won’t ignite Same hope Same lie Same reason not to die Hit repeat Clench jaw I don’t float I don’t fall If this is living I’ll rot loud before I stall WAKE WORK WASTE SLEEP FIX MYSELF BREAK MY TEETH I AM NOT AFRAID OF DYING I’M AFRAID THIS NEVER BENDS I DON’T NEED ESCAPE I NEED THE LOOP TO END Maybe hell isn’t fire or flame Maybe it’s routine with a different name Maybe freedom isn’t running away Maybe it’s choosing where I stay Same day Same breath Still weight Still flesh Still here Still loud Still standing Still unbowed Hit repeat Break form I won’t disappear quiet or warm If this is living I’LL TEAR THE CLOCK OUT OF THE WALL Alarm’s coming. I know. I’m awake. I always am.
