I didn’t know love could stay without taking something from me I thought every open hand was just another way to bleed you said forever like a promise I heard forever like a threat you gave me something I could lose and I guarded it to death I built a panic room around us then wondered why we couldn’t breathe you kept knocking from the inside and I called you hard to reach you were tired of being locked out of a heart you never left you were running out of reasons I was running out of lies don’t let me be the reason your love learns how to leave you’re the only hand I’ve held that didn’t feel like losing me I’ve been hard to hold but you’re still holding on and I don’t wanna heal if healing means you’re gone don’t let me be the reason your love learns how to leave you put your heart in my hands I kept checking it for knives you said I could rest with you I asked what it would cost this time you gave me love without a catch I still treated it like debt you said love like it was simple I went looking for the fine print you were tired of being questioned for the crime of staying here I was running out of excuses for why I still lived in fear don’t let me be the reason your love learns how to leave you’re the only hand I’ve held that didn’t feel like losing me I’ve been hard to hold but you’re still holding on and I don’t wanna heal if healing means you’re gone don’t let me be the reason your love learns how to leave you stopped crying when I hurt you and that scared me more than tears you didn’t have to say it I could hear you disappear you finally stopped fighting me and I hated that I won cause being right meant nothing when it left me with no one I kept putting your fingerprints on a weapon you never held made a crime scene out of loving me then blamed you for the blood I spilled you never pulled the trigger still I made you clean the blood you swore you weren’t the one who hurt me but I needed you to be cause if you weren’t the monster I had nowhere left to aim and I was too scared to notice the barrel pointed back at me don’t let me be the reason your love learns how to leave you’re the only hand I’ve held that didn’t feel like losing me I’ve been hard to hold but you’re still holding on and I don’t wanna heal if healing means you’re gone don’t let me be the reason your love learns how to leave don’t let me be the reason I lose the only love that stayed with me if your love is still reaching I’ll stop making it bleed I spent so long surviving I forgot what safe could be don’t let me be the reason your love learns how to leave
