"maybe" not "Dad"

[Verse 1] If I gave you my number Would it stay in your drawer Between loose change And old receipts Would you stare at the digits Say "I'll try tomorrow" Then forget my name Before you sleep [Chorus] If I gave you my number Would you never call Would you send one line Then that be all I lost so many years Not knowing you Dad Tell me if I dial Will it hurt this bad [Verse 2] Your face in a photo On my mother’s fridge Half-cropped smile Paper edge torn I practiced "hey It’s me" To the dial tone at night Grown man shaking Like I’m newly born [Chorus] If I gave you my number Would you never call Would you send one line Then that be all I lost so many years Not knowing you Dad I’m standing with the phone Caught between hope and mad [Bridge] Do you tell your friends You only had one child Do you think of me When the house goes quiet I could press this green light Watch it ring Ring Ring Or let another birthday Slip right by it [Chorus] If I gave you my number Would you never call Would you type "I’m proud" Or nothing at all I lost so many years Not knowing you Dad So I’ll save this in my phone As "maybe" not "Dad"