If Not Love, then what?

If not love, what? If not love, what? I meant no indifference but this apathy afflicts me Thrashin in passion Can getcha a rash an is exhausting accosting We was walking and talking She say I- mmmmhmmmm- will rock yo wurl Girl my world weighty curled in a ball balanced on the tip of a paper clip Bout tuh fall House of cards where hard winds blow precarious, so i give kudos for confidence Demerits for grasp on reality- no offense Ever since i was a boy i saw mindless pursuit of sex destroy relationships, finances, reputations, self perception, self worth, peer relations, morals, ethics, character, and so on and so forth and to gain what? Vibrant friction? Fix of dopamine, and endorphins? Another addiction Like eating breathing keepin the heart beating? Connection visceral? Essential contact with that which proves to outshine shmooze and nose to the grindstone blues youz singing? We all singin? Mmm truths mmmhmmm chance at love Thats prolly enough to keep most shmucks Tethered on leashes smiling dumbstruck Seems love leans a’little mean and geeze Oft brings bags of things which no one needs like booby traps on body grabs and triggers Set by riggers with rigorous care Hooked to the flood gates of pain and despair Stare into the abyss, trust you got a piece Ominous and deep a voluminous cavernous hollow Where our hells hang out and wallow A thin cape if physicality laid Preventing their escape. Seems cagey dicey unlikely to end well But still… yeah yeah yea Ok Sure. You’re right. If not love, then what? Indeed Indeed, what? I dunno it just once i touched something like love but it wasnt Something like a source of which i was a conduit A catalyst of which i was an extension The eye, you dont love the eye you consider the vision The eye does not love you It supplies vision, fulfills its function That what i touched was just like this Authoring existence experiencing it through us Not so much love as accord and congruence Effortless expectation of utter devotion And reciprocation was physics not choice. If not love, that. If not love, that. If not love that never lingers Live for that which is The definition of is This Is Enough.