(Verse 1) Another morning, peel myself off the floor The ceiling’s watching, it's seen this all before I paint a smile on, a masterpiece of paste Another perfect portrait of a man with nothing misplaced I think of calling you, the one who said they'd care But the words get twisted into thorns, a garden in the air I see the pity blooming, then the judgment in your eyes You'd say I'm choosing darkness, living in a lie 'Cause I don't wanna be a fixer-upper, a project for your heart I don't wanna be a diagnosis, torn apart I just wanna feel the rain without it turning grey I just wanna be allowed to not be okay (Ad-lib: "Without you looking the other way!") To just not be okay! The system has its numbers, its little boxes to check A pill to smooth the wrinkles, a cage around my neck They say it's just a chemical, a switch that needs a light But I’m afraid the person who wakes up won't put up a fight I tried to write a letter, to put the chaos into words But they look like scribbles of a broken, wounded bird It's safer in the silence, where the monster's only mine Than to see the fear reflected, a constant, fragile sign 'Cause I don't wanna be a fixer-upper, a project for your heart I don't wanna be a diagnosis, torn apart I just wanna feel the rain without it turning grey I just wanna be allowed to not be okay (Ad-lib: "Without you looking the other way!") The noise is getting louder, drowning out the song The current’s getting stronger, and I've been holding on too long My hand is on the railing, looking at the peaceful deep A promise of a silence where I can finally sleep I thought you'd see the signs, written on my skin A silent, screaming language that I was drowning in But you just saw a guy who liked the quiet and the shade Another masterpiece of porcelain, perfectly made. And now you're at the service, with your flowers and your tears You whisper "should-have-knowns" to try and conquer fears You say you would've listened, you would've pulled me through But I was screaming in a language that was only ever true To the silence that I lived in, the monster that I knew! I didn't wanna be a fixer-upper, a project for your heart! I didn't wanna be a diagnosis, torn apart! I just wanted you to feel this rain without the grey! I just wanted to be allowed to not be okay! (Ad-lib, screamed with desperation: "Why couldn't you just let me...") To just not be okay!
