Yeah... it's fine It's always fine I'm fine, I'm fine Six years old when I learned that smile was a language, mm Learned the house looked good long as the porch was stagin' Perfect on the postcard, rotten in the rafters Bled in silence, nobody ever asked after Nobody checked, nobody came, nobody knocked Just me and the quiet, learnin' how to float Good girl, soft-spoken — that's the label they gave me Halo up top, thorns where nobody could see me I laugh it off, I laugh it off, yeah (ayy) Pour it up just to numb what I saw I laugh it off, I laugh it off, yeah Smilin' so hard that it's startin' to crack Tell me it's fine, tell me it's fine (tell me) Tell me the hurt made me who I am But nobody asks the monster if she's tired Nobody asks the monster if she's fine Daddy said survival ain't sweet, said "burn to eat" Watched two grown adults drown it, called it self-care, called it relief Smile as a muzzle, taught by two people who never healed Was it the house or was it me — can't tell, can't feel So when I lie, when I disappear Don't call it sin, call it somethin' I inherited here Somethin' runnin' under my skin I laugh it off, I laugh it off, yeah (ayy) Pour it up just to numb what I saw I laugh it off, I laugh it off, yeah Smilin' so hard that it's startin' to crack Tell me it's fine, tell me it's fine (tell me) Tell me the hurt made me who I am But nobody asks the monster if she's tired Nobody asks the monster if she's fine Some nights I'd trade this skin for anybody else's Maybe I'm just a girl who never learned another way to breathe Ever think about what's livin' under the laugh track? Do I get tired, do I get lonely, do I break like anybody else Y'all called it strength, but strength don't feel like this Healing ain't what came out the other side They say flowers grow through the concrete Nobody says what it cost the flower to bloom there Just a house full of ghosts I can't put down Just a nightmare that never really ends I laughed it off, I laughed it off, yeah (I can't—) I can't hold it, I can't hold it no more I laughed it off 'til I broke, 'til I broke, yeah Smilin' so hard that my face finally cracked First time I'm sober enough to say it It's not fine, it was never fine It's not— it was never— (gasp) It's not fine And nobody asked the monster if she's tired Nobody asked the monster if she's fine Nobody asked... nobody asked... Nobody ever asked me if I'm fine It's fine... It's fine... It was never fine
