the things you never said, Letting them rot like fruit beneath my tongue. You called it love— But it felt more like a curse You carved into my sternum Just to see if I’d come undone. You made a cathedral out of breaking me, And still I knelt, Still I fucking prayed— Like bleeding was holy If it kept you from walking away. I let you pull my ribs apart Just to hear you say my name. But you never loved me softly— You only loved me when I ached. So take your goddamn hands Off the ruins that you made. You don’t get to call it love When all you ever did was raze. I gave you worship, You gave me wounds— And baby, I wore them like a crown. If I burn in your devotion, Then I’m dragging your whole church down. You said I was divine When I was choking on your silence. You said pain looked good on me— Like you mistook me for your violence. I tore myself to pieces Trying to be the thing you crave. But you only want the version of me That fucking breaks. You kissed me like a warning, You touched me like a threat— And I swore I’d die to keep you, Now I swear I won’t forget. So take your goddamn hands Off the wreckage of my spine. You don’t get to claim devotion When you crossed every single line. I held you like a promise, You held me like a weapon— But the girl you crucified is gone. I’m the storm You never saw coming. I’m the wrath You fucking spawned. I broke myself open For a man who couldn’t bleed. I learned your language of cruelty— Now hear mine As I make you kneel. (building) You taught me ruin. You taught me hunger. You taught me rage— And I learned it younger. So take your goddamn hands Off the altar of my grief. You fed on every heartbeat— Now choke on my relief. I was holy in your shadow; Now I’m sacred in my rage. I’m the fire in your lungs— The reckoning you made. You wanted worship? You wanted ruin? Here I am. Burning through it. The same trauma, show me what you're made of Cause you talk about your constant pain like I ain't got none I've learned to live beside it And even though it's over now, I will always be reminded
