[no instruments] [spoken — almost whispered] have i gone mad? i’m afraid so — ur entirely bonkers but i’ll tell you a secret… all the best people are — alice in wonderland [one deep floor stomp] [pause] ⸻ verse 1 [tempo begins — 72 bpm] [acoustic fingerpick] [light stomp every 2 beats] i’m being looked at again that glance of fear and concern [male harmony — low under concern] like i’m about to be checked in like i’m some kind of fifty-fifty version [stomp gets heavier] i’m actually mentally shaken but very much aware i feel forsaken i feel the need to share i feel spiritual in the words i’m saying but also like i’m betraying because i care even if you left me in the sahara with samara [crowd echo optional] samara ⸻ pre-hook (first appearance) [instruments soften] i don’t know people scare me [solo voice] i can’t be here right now [pause] ⸻ chorus — stomp chant begins [full stomp rhythm enters] [snare rim clicks] [bass enters] i can’t be here right now i can’t be here right now [crowd repeats second line] i wanna be a movie star i wanna be a rockstar too i wanna be a pilot a lifeguard a fucking fast porn star if i have to [crowd laugh release moment allowed] ⸻ verse 2 [guitar switches to strum] i came back scarred up fucking harder had to climb from the wells twisted version came back and immediately forgave but it damaged me how i handle my days where i put my hands why i feel out of place did you want me erased? [band stop] no way [crowd repeats louder] no way ⸻ hook return (bigger) [stomp doubles intensity] i can’t be here right now i can’t be here right now [crowd repeats both lines] ⸻ personality section (groove shift) [half-time beat] [bass + snaps] i don’t like one thing i like random holes sometimes i can sing when certain personalities hold but the broken in me folds [band drops] there’s shit in myself that shouldn’t be told ⸻ glitch verse [bass + snaps only] like i’ll call samara and get chatty but most others kinda glitch me out unless i pop an addy or two [band pause] i can’t be here right now [crowd echo] right now ⸻ bridge (heartbeat section) [floor tom heartbeat rhythm] regardless i’m embracing the alternative is captivity the consequence of something i should be bracing? because my personality is a little too amazing? [crowd hum pad begins softly] thoughts too fast for you words racing feet pacing hurt anticipating self-hating destructive escaping ⸻ FINAL CHANT SECTION (anthem moment) [full band returns strongest yet] [stomp doubles] [snare opens] [bass driving] i can’t be here right now i can’t be here right now i can’t be here right now [crowd repeats alone] i can’t be here right now ⸻ ending declaration [all instruments drop except acoustic] i can’t continue living like i’m someone besides myself [pause] even if to others i’m not well [last line — solo voice, no reverb] i’m not asking for help [full silence]