You are laying on my bed The incense on my shelf is burning We have barely spoke And the way you keep turning While the room fills up with smoke Cigarettes and incense. Not unpleasant This pain I feel is present, but this is all past tense. Things in front of me are getting clearer And the muscles of my memory are weak There’s desolation in my rearview mirror And the future ahead now looks so bleak Here I am, past or present, standing at the door, With plastered lament Collapsing to the floor The world outside is colorless I’m sure I’ve made a mess of this I am waiting for a chance That I’m not sure will ever come The bitter sweetness of that memory, It lingers on my tongue But the melody remains the same, However oft’ it’s sung I am reaching out to you now Because I am hoping that you somehow Can still hear me in your sleep When I find a way to reach The surface To me you were perfect And so far beyond my reach So far beyond my reach But I know this all would come to an end If only I could open the door and go in But I’m scared, of what might lie beyond, Is it right or is it wrong To think that I might actually survive The downward spiral of the eternal dive, To leave behind the life where I died, Come out clean and breathing on the other side? Will I ever see the other side? But hey! don’t worry they say, It will all be okay If it gets out of hand, They can send me away Entrenched in the past Consumed by that memory My heart of stone, Your face of emery Here, your scent, it lingers I can trace your shape In the smoke with my fingers… The bitter sweetness of that memory It lingers… It lingers… It lingers… I can see your face in the darkness You said we were partners That nothing could part us You’d love me regardless But now my nights are starless When did you become heartless? I scream and I bleed Just to feel a catharsis! But the melody remains the same, However oft’ it’s sung I am reaching out to you now Because I am hoping that you somehow Can still hear me in your sleep When I find a way to reach The surface To me you were perfect And so far beyond my reach So far beyond my reach So far beyond my reach I am reaching I am reaching I am reaching I am reaching I am reaching For the surface
