I got a mouth full of apologies And I can hear how empty they feel Every promise dies between my teeth Before the wound has time to heal Midnight makes me feel forgiven Morning makes you disappear I keep reaching for the poison While I keep standing right here Guiltโs got both hands around my neck And shame keeps living in your bones Every time I try to claw out You still donโt know youโre not alone Shame is a prison Guilt is a grave I keep digging up the worst of me And calling it what I deserve to save Both of us drinking One of us drowning You keep trying to pull me out While I keep dragging us down Shame is a prison Guilt is a chain I keep saying Iโm sorry Like it can wash out all this pain We all fuck up, itโs true So why do I hold it against me When you donโt hold it against me too Same mother, different fathers Same pain running through our veins You gave me couches, gave me cover And I watched you lose it all again You gave me money, helped find jobs And the bottle took them every time Every time you pulled me from the bottom You came back bloodied from the climb You never wanted to abandon me And you know thatโs always been the truth But every time you tried to save me I got more wreckage back from you Shame is a prison Guilt is a grave I keep digging up the worst of me And calling it what I deserve to save Both of us drinking One of us drowning You keep trying to pull me out While I keep dragging us down Shame is a prison Guilt is a chain I keep saying Iโm sorry Like it can wash out all this pain We all fuck up, itโs true So why do I hold it against me When you donโt hold it against me too Yeah, but yours donโt drag you under Iโm not clean, Iโve got my vices I let mine turn my whole world darker I learned how to function through it I know Iโve put you through hell And it kills my soul to watch you But I kept choosing something else I just wanted you to get better And I turned them into ash I gave you shelter, gave you chances While I kept breaking everything I had I kept trying to hold the pieces Then donโt let me disappear I will not leave you in this darkness Iโm trying, Iโm trying, keep me here I need you to fight for something Shame is a prison Guilt is a grave Donโt let this be the life That I was always too afraid to save Both of us drinking One of us drowning You kept reaching through the dark When I was hell-bent on going down Shame is a prison Break these chains I am more than every failure I am more than every stain If you still see the light in me Then donโt let me lose myself I donโt want to die inside this I want to be somebody else Pull me out Before I drown Pull me out Before I drown Shame is a prison But Iโm not dying in it now Pull me out Before I drown Pull me out Before I drown Iโm still here Iโm still here And Iโm not dying in this now
