[Verse 1] Each day is a struggle. Each hour I suffocate. I'm drowning in a kingdom of my own making! you say you'll stay. you show me proof. proof of the man I am, proof of the love you choose. [Verse 2] I can't feel anything, my heart is numb! surrounded by love, yet I still eye my gun. The shadows are taking control. I wanna fall into old habits! I wanna lose control! I feel the man I become, losing hold. [pre-chorus] Show me you have my back. be the chain that holds me down. My anger is taking hold, and I can't let go! I can't go back! [Chorus] losing control! losing my mind! Expecting the next sunset. Waiting for the final sunrise! Drowning in my own shadows feeling so, heartless. Anger and Loss are all I've known! masking is easier than letting go! am I still worth it? (am I still worth it?) feeling so, heartless! [Verse 2] Trauma has me in chains! binding me to my past. half the time I can't even recognize when I lash out. I'm lost in my past. scared to death of what i see, every perceived slight is proof that my shadow is safety. [Final Pre-Chorus] Show me you have my back, be the chain that holds me down, my anger is taking hold, and I can't let go! I won't go back! [Final Chorus] losing control! losing my mind! Expecting the next sunset. Waiting for the final sunrise! Drowning in my own shadows feeling so, heartless. Anger and Loss are all I've known! masking is easier than letting go! am I still worth it? (worth it?) feeling so, heartless! [outro] Heartless! Heartless! I won't go back to who I was.
