Struggle

[Intro] [steel-string acoustic guitar strumming rhythmic open chords and drums] Verse 1 I still leave the hallway light on Like you might walk through the door I still listen for your footsteps Though they’re not there anymore There are words I should have spoken There are truths I should have faced Now the silence fills the spaces Where your voice has been erased Pre-Chorus I tell myself to let you go But my heart refuses to know Chorus [male baritone vocals enter] And I struggle And I struggle And I can't release the pain When I'm calling out your name And I struggle And I struggle And I'm standing in the rain With this relentless shame Verse 2 I’ve been sleeping with the curtains Open wide against the night Hoping somehow you might find me Like a ship might find a light But the morning brings no answers Only shadows on the wall And the memory of losing you Is the hardest truth of all Pre-Chorus I tell myself that I’m alright Then I fall apart each night Chorus And I struggle And I struggle And I can’t release the pain When I’m calling out your name And I struggle And I struggle And I’m standing in the rain With this relentless shame Bridge Was it something I had broken? Was it something I became? Did you leave because I hurt you? Or were we both just scared to stay? I would carry all the blame now Just to hold you once again But some doors remain unopened And some stories have to end Final Chorus Still I struggle Still I struggle And I can’t release the pain When I’m calling out your name Still I struggle Still I struggle Still I’m standing in the rain With this relentless shame Outro And I struggle Though I know you won’t return And I struggle With the lessons I have learned I’m still calling out your name But the silence stays the same And I’m standing in the rain With this relentless shame