I talk too fast when the room goes quiet Say the wrong thing, try to dress it up Drop a joke that lands like broken glass Didn’t mean to spill, still tipped the cup. I miss the cues, I miss the turn I’m morbid in my own damn head I swear I’m not that careless It just sounds that way in what I said. I’m an accidental asshole Foot in mouth, heart in hand I don’t mean to bruise your-ree-goh Or make you think you don’t count. I’m an accidental asshole Trying hard, I burn twice I watch it hit after it’s done I eat the cost, I pay the sum. I wear “fine” like armor plating Crack a line so no one looks Underneath the humor There’s a system tremor... I can’t stop. Anxiety with perfect posture Just me saying “I’ve GOT!. This.” I disappear inside myself... Then wonder why I miss the shift. There are faces I still carry People who faded into silence Quiet pain doesn’t announce itself It just waits for the room to notice... too late. I’m an accidental asshole Just a person learning how to pause Learning silence isn’t empty Learning impact still has laws. if i ever miss you in the crowd... please know it wasn't cuz you didn't matter. i was lost in my own survival... still learning how to see faster. i would rip my heart out... and hand it to you while it’s still beating. © 2026 Natalie Fades. All rights reserved. Lyrics & Sonic Architecture by Natalie Fades
