Hey, umm… I just… you see… I uh, kinda wanna Fuck, this is hard Every sentence dies before it’s even said Like my mouth and brain just disconnect instead I swear I had it perfect in my head Now it’s static, broken, left for dead Yeah it hurts, this “don’t get close” act Like I built these walls and can’t pull them back So I stall for time, misalign And when the daylight fades, I’m fine, I’m fine No I’m fucking not I talk too loudly, dodge it proudly Tell me what the hell is wrong with me? I’ve got the feeling But lose the meaning Why the fuck can’t I just say Baka I keep glitching out when I get too close Every word I need just overdosed Complicated, yeah, I hate it most I just don’t know how to let it show Go ahead, laugh, like I’d break down I’d rather crash than say it out loud dumbass So I choke it back, let it rot But my heart keeps screaming what I’m not I just don’t know how to speak up It’s not like I wanna, idiot Baka Idiot Damn it! It’s not like I waited here for you, okay? Even if you left, I’d be the same Burned out, numb to every fucking day Guess I’m wired just to push away (So when you go, I won’t cry) …yeah right, that’s a goddamn lie, sigh Don’t stay, I’d just mess it up Trip on every word and self-destruct, Fuck! I’m so damn selfish, I hate this But I’ll act fine, yeah I’ll fake it Play it cool, turn you away So why the hell do I want you to stay… idiot? I keep glitching out when I get too close Acting fine while I’m comatose Complicated, maybe, but I’m not a ghost I just don’t know how to let it show Crash and burn, yeah, I say I don’t care (I do, baka) Get too close and I disappear on you So I bite it back, let it rot But don’t expect me to say a lot I just don’t know how to speak up Can you tell me if I should or not? Complicated Can’t you see? Complicated It’s killing me… Complicated (Is this fucking real?) You read me like it’s easy to decode (It feels so unreal) Every signal’s crossed and overthrown (Or am I somehow falling apart?) All this fucked-up shit I never said (Did something infect my heart?) When all I’ve got is pride to hide It’s just so Complicated I keep breaking apart I keep breaking apart Shit, just say it …why can’t I start? I keep glitching out when I get too close! Every feeling spikes then overloads! Complicated, but I’m not a lost cause! I just don’t know how to say it at all! Say I hate you, don’t believe that shit (baka-idiot) If you walk away, I’ll throw a fucking fit So I hold it back, let it rot …but it’s tearing everything I’ve got I just don’t know how to speak up! Dumbass, tell me when I should say it! When do I speak up!? This is so fucking stupid Just stay Or don’t I don’t care… Idiot I fucking do
