[Intro] Hey, I hope you get this shit, I just wanna say Been thinkin’ ’bout you every goddamn day This is my letter, hope it finds its way To the person who brightens my darkest days [Verse 1] Dear you, I’ve been watchin’ from the sidelines, Wishing I could tell you what’s been on my mind, Your smile, your laugh, it’s stuck in my head, Wish I could say it out loud, but I’m full of dread, I’m scared shitless, afraid I’ll screw it all, But girl, I swear, I’d give you my soul if I could call, Just a lonely voice in the back of your mind, Hoping someday, I’ll leave these fears behind, Yeah, I’m a mess, but I’m tryin’ to be real, Got these feelings I can’t help but feel, If I had the guts, I’d tell you I care, Instead, I’m stuck with this damn despair [Chorus] This is my fucked-up letter to you, hope you read it right, Got these crazy-ass feelings I can’t hide tonight Wish I could tell you how much you mean to me, You’re the only reason I still believe in what love can be If I had the balls, I’d say it all, no damn fear, But I’m scared of losing you, my dear So I’m writing this letter, hoping someday you’ll see, You’re the only one I want, girl, you’re everything to me [Verse 2] I see your face, it haunts me in my sleep, Wish I could scream, but I’m too damn weak, Thought about breaking in, just to say what’s true, But I’m a coward, girl, I don’t know what to do, My mind’s a storm, chaos in my chest, Losing my grip, I’m an emotional mess, If I could, I’d burn this whole damn world down, Just to get your attention, make you turn around, I’m losing control, going fucking insane, Wanna scream your name, drown in this pain, Girl, I’m a lunatic, I’m losing my mind, Would kill to be yours, to leave all this behind [Chorus] This is my fucked-up letter to you, hope you read it right, Got these crazy-ass feelings I can’t hide tonight Wish I could tell you how much you mean to me, You’re the only reason I still believe in what love can be If I had the balls, I’d say it all, no damn fear, But I’m scared of losing you, my dear So I’m writing this letter, hoping someday you’ll see, You’re the only one I want, girl, you’re everything to me [Verse 3] I’m spiraling out, lose grip, about to collapse, Thoughts so dark, I can’t turn back, My mind’s a battlefield, I’m losing the fight, Fighting demons in the dead of night, I’m bleeding out, this pain’s too much, Girl, I’m broken, I’m losing touch, This love’s a curse, a suicide note, Drowning in the chaos, I can’t stay afloat, I see the end, and I welcome the fade, Feel my soul slip, I’m already paid, I’m fading fast, lost in the dark, This is my goodbye, I’ve left my mark, I’m dead inside, no more breath to take, This love’s killed me, now I’m the mistake. [Chorus] This is my fucked-up letter to you, hope you read it right, Got these crazy-ass feelings I can’t hide tonight Wish I could tell you how much you mean to me, You’re the only reason I still believe in what love can be If I had the balls, I’d say it all, no damn fear, But I’m scared of losing you, my dear So I’m writing this letter, hoping someday you’ll see, You’re the only one I want, girl, you’re everything to me [Outro] If you find this, girl, I hope you understand, All these crazy feelings, all I wanted was your hand, But now I’m gone, I’ve lost the fight, Just know I loved you with all my might. And maybe in another life, we’ll get it right, Until then, I’m gone into the night.