Not Forever, Just Tomorrow

I’d kissed boys in my imagination Never thought I’d let one know Then you took my hand beneath the table Like you’d never let it go I was twenty, scared and certain You were everything I’d missed You made loving you look easy I believed it when we kissed You were the first man I didn’t hide away The first one I was brave enough To love in the light of day I thought love meant stay Not forever, just tomorrow I thought if you knew all of me You’d be the last to let me go You were the first man Who made me unafraid I knew that people leave I just thought love meant stay Stay, stay I just thought love meant stay We left toothbrushes in bathrooms Made a language of our own You said, “Come here, you’re overthinking” And your arms became my home I made promises you never asked for Made a future from your name You were living in the moment I was giving it a frame You were the first man I let beneath my skin I thought the way you opened me Meant you were staying in I thought love meant stay Not forever, just tomorrow I thought if you knew all of me You’d be the last to let me go You were the first man Who made me unafraid I knew that people leave I just thought love meant stay Stay, stay I just thought love meant stay You can mean it when you hold me You can mean it when you say That you love me in the moment And still not love me enough to stay You said, “What we had was real” Like real was meant to ease the pain But a fire can keep you warm one night And still be gone by day Maybe you were never lying Maybe I just heard too much I heard forever in your breathing You only promised me your touch You were the first man Who made me feel like me And the first one who could leave me With nowhere left to hide but me I thought love meant stay Not forever, just tomorrow I thought if you knew all of me You’d be the last to let me go You were the first man Who made me unafraid Now I know that love can be real And still not choose to stay Stay, stay You didn’t choose to stay Stay, stay God, I thought love meant stay I don’t regret the way I loved you Only what I thought it proved You were not the love that lasted You were the first that felt like truth _______________________ Original Lyrics by Mickey Wilder. © All rights reserved.