6 Feet Down

[Intro – Spoken | low, truck cab reverb] Some of y’all… you wanna know who I used to be… Yeah… alright then. ⸻ [Verse 1 – Rap | stripped, acoustic + kick] Let down, beat down, tired of it all, Same damn faces just watchin’ me fall. Eyes cut deep but they don’t lend a hand, I’m too damn numb just to take a stand. Ain’t nobody there when the silence hits, Just me and my thoughts and a bottle I sip. I shut down quick, yeah I stayed like that, Let that shit ride, never looked back. Kept folks out, kept my distance wide, If they got too close, I’d kill it inside. Better they hurt now than see me clear, I ain’t let nobody get that near. ⸻ [Chorus – Sung | rough, melodic drawl] I’m already broke down in pieces, Your darkness grips me, never releases. Bleedin’ out while they all just stare, Like I ain’t even standin’ there. Try to rise but I hit the ground, Same damn weight just draggin’ me down. Six feet deep in a place I found… Still breathin’, but I’m barely around. ⸻ [Verse 2 – Rap | heavier 808, darker tone] False words fly, now they paint my name, Truth gets buried while they feed the flame. I tried walkin’ out, tried leavin’ that place, But every damn mornin’ it’s back in my face. Pain you gave, yeah I held that tight, Turned it cold, let it shape my life. Didn’t feel shit when I crossed that line, Didn’t give a fuck at the time. Bottle stayed where my people should be, That burn hit harder than any of ‘em did me. Self-medicated, drownin’ it slow, Hurt ‘em first ‘fore they got too close. Said shit I knew would cut ‘em deep, Then walked away like that ain’t on me. Truth is… yeah, I knew what I done, Just didn’t care who I’d become. ⸻ [Chorus – Sung | fuller, layered harmonies] I’m already broke down in pieces, Your darkness grips me, never releases. Bleedin’ out while they all just stare, Like I ain’t even standin’ there. Try to rise but I hit the ground, Same damn weight just draggin’ me down. Six feet deep in a place I found… Still breathin’, but I’m barely around. ⸻ [Bridge – Spoken → build] Face in the dirt… yeah… I earned some of that. (beat drops back in) Now I gotta live with it. ⸻ [Verse 3 – Rap | raw, reflective] I ain’t innocent, I ain’t clean, There’s a whole lotta shit I done in between. Times I chose wrong over love, Times I shut down, pushed away trust. Had demons sittin’ right in my head, Fed ‘em instead of puttin’ ‘em dead. Knew damn well what I was turnin’ into… Still let it happen, yeah I went through. ⸻ [Final Chorus – Sung | strongest, emotional peak] I’m already broke down in pieces, Your darkness grips me, never releases. Bleedin’ out but I’m still right here, Ain’t disappear, just learned to live in it. Tried to stand but I fell back down, Carried that weight like it’s mine to own now. Six feet deep but I ain’t gone yet… Still breathin’ with a life full of regret. ⸻ [Outro – Spoken | quiet, fading] That’s who I was… Ain’t gonna dress it up. Just say it how it was.