[Verse 1] I can’t do this fucking shit no more Can’t get a whore cause I’m too fucking poor. Is it the clothes I wore My core fell flat on the floor Do I just bore Her to death, not like this before back in the day, iwas like I was on tour Girls lined up, banging at my door Man, did they ever adore Puck slid-- ... OFF THE POST--- In the pussy... SCORE For sure every whore kept begging for more Now I’m burn't out. So sore Whats the right metaphor Soldier back from the war No clue what it's all for. [Hook] Ya ask “Why you feeling so low?” At first I say, “I don’t even know” (DON'T EVEN KNOW) Try to gather my thoughts, twisted up in knots Moving so slow Try to show, where I feel the blow Why my glow ain't loud Feel below the crowd You tell me it’s not real Your signals dont flow I just whine Don’t fall in line Just need to grow Quit looking for a ho Only want power and control A selfish asshole [Verse 2] I feel empty and alone No one ever texts my phone Just want to bone Never thinking past your own Just sit here, cry, and moan “Grow up, BRO" No one’s in your debt they don’t owe My mind runs where I don’t wanna go Foggy and slow, just trying to show Wait—someone's here to say hello— Just another hot head wanting to blow Slow down.... breath try to plateau Really I just “Don’t know” Deep in my head, I just wanna grow why----- Man I feel like I’m waving, trying to say hi Nobody sees me, thier just leaving walk by Sick of feeling used, taking it dry Over and over. why, why, WHY IM not a bad guy WHY Don't my needs apply Can't rely on anyone to supply Looking up to the sky Tears in my eye Would be telling a lie If I said I wasn't ready to die [Chorus] I feel so empty, anyone I should tell good-bye? Too stubborn can't do it on my own Barely getting by Never noticed for how hard I try Always taking blame, like why Really i'm the bad guy? You ask I comply Still the bad guy Your convinced I lied I’m left questioning my—( MYSELF WHY??) Im not a bad guy NOT A BAD GUY [Verse 3] Say one thing, do another Why do you even bother? When you talk, do you know you’re doing it? I can’t see how it’s possible How it doesn’t get hostile I don’t mind, to me it’s not an obstacle I find it impossible. can’t make sense of what you take From being fake Are you unaware or just don’t care? In the moment does your mind just wants to find A way out of there It hurts-- confuses---- frustrates. My respect evaporates. Soaked like a wet t-shirt. Here to be degraded. My humanity. humiliated. [BRIDGE] These feelings filling up inside Getting harder to hide How do I swallow my pride? I need help supplied Someone who gives a fuck Enough to guide Me through provide A reason to listen. A reason to care A way to make the clouds subside What am I missing? Somebody share Get me somewhere I’d be scared if I died I just want to matter At least I have her… mad [VERSE 4] I know if I wanna stop being weak and picked on I gotta grow me a pair Starting to feel like I’m a promise broken Not worth repair Sorry if I don’t give you time to prepare Before my flail goes off the rails So lost. so trapped. don’t know where. Maybe prayer will get me there [Bridge 2] What’s meant to be will be I guess that’s the key What’s really taking a toll Is feeling I got no control Don’t know how to chase my goals Every choice I make, when I try to help Gets hard to take Feels like there’s more I don’t know The blame I receive I don’t believe I deserve it or to achieve So much—yeah, I’m naive But we’ve reached the eve Of me ready to take my leave [Final verse]] Going too fast It won't be long Not up to the task Always WRONG. I DONT DO ENOUGH DONT DO IT RIGHT. Beginning to feel Love equate to Fight Day feels llike night. Up feels like black And down brings me light. Until you finally explode Like blue balls A decade old Step on the gas Engine roars Petal to the floor Headed to the edge Prepared to free fall Over the ledge Pick up steam up the hill Only Moment until [Break] The engjne stalls Gas tank I forgot to fill Not my time to die This must be Gods will [OUTRO] Today begins as a new start Look deep inside my own heart Love myself as a work of art I know im talented Know Im smart Moving forward control the parts Move toward sparks Allow myself to idle calm energy And park where Im meant to be
