[VERSE 1 — MELODIC, HARD RHYTHMIC POCKET] I take every late-night call, Talk you down and catch your fall. Carry burdens that aren’t mine, Whisper, “Breathe—you’ll be alright.” I know every scar you hide, Every war you fight inside. Make damn sure You’re not alone— Then fight every war Of my own. They say, “You’re strong. You’ll be okay,” Like strength can make The hurting fade. I learned to carry All this pain— That doesn’t mean I never fucking break. [PRE-CHORUS — RISING TOMS, BASS STILL MOVING] I don’t need you To save me. I just need A safe place to fall. I’m tired of being Everybody’s shelter— When nobody catches me At all. [BRIEF SILENCE] [CHORUS — MASSIVE 808 DROP] WHO HOLDS ME WHEN I’M NOT OKAY? Who talks me down When I’m slipping away? Who reads my silence And knows what it means? Who carries me When I’m too weak? I hold everybody Through all of their pain— But who holds me When I fucking break? Who holds me? Who holds me When I’m not okay? [VERSE 2 — NEW DRUM POCKET, DIRTY 808 RESPONSES] I answer every “Are you awake?” Even when my own hands Start to shake. I pour from a heart That’s running dry, Still wipe every tear Before my own eyes. I remember birthdays, Check if you ate. Notice your silence, Know when you’ve changed. But when I disappear Inside my head— Nobody notices What I never said. You love the version That holds it together. The one who survives Every kind of weather. But would you still stay If that strength went away? If I finally admitted— “I’m not okay”? [PRE-CHORUS — KICK SWITCH, VOCAL BUILD] I don’t need you To fix me. I just need you To stay when I fall. I’m tired of being Everybody’s shelter— While I’m breaking Behind these walls. [BRIEF SILENCE] [CHORUS — BIGGER DROP, DOUBLE DRUMS] WHO HOLDS ME WHEN I’M NOT OKAY? Who talks me down When I’m slipping away? Who reads my silence And knows what it means? Who carries me When I’m too weak? I hold everybody Through all of their pain— But who holds me When I fucking break? Who holds me? Who holds me When I’m not okay? [BRIDGE — FULLY SUNG, HEARTBEAT + LOW DRUMS + OMINOUS SUB] Maybe I made it Look too easy. Maybe I smiled A little too well. Maybe you thought Because I kept standing— I never needed Anybody’s help. But strong gets tired. Strong feels pain. Strong can drown While saving everyone else. I can be the shoulder For the whole damn world— And still need somewhere To lay my head. [DRUMS AND TOMS RISING] I’m still a woman. I’m still afraid. I still get lost. I still need grace. I still need someone Who won’t walk away— WHEN I FUCKING BREAK! [TOTAL SILENCE] [HARDEST DOUBLE-DRUM + DISTORTED 808 DROP] [FINAL CHORUS — HUGE, RAW BELTS] WHO HOLDS ME WHEN I’M NOT OKAY? Who pulls me close When I’m slipping away? Who hears “I’m fine” And knows it’s not true? Who gives me the love I keep giving to you? I hold everybody Through all of their pain— But who holds me When I fucking break? I don’t need saving. I just need a place— Where I can fall apart And still feel safe. WHO HOLDS ME? WHO HOLDS ME WHEN I’M NOT OKAY? [OUTRO — BEAT KEEPS KNOCKING, RAW VOCAL] Everybody calls me Whenever they’re breaking… But who do I call When I can’t take it?
