[Verse 1] I laugh when I’m supposed to laugh, I play it right, I wear the mask. I know the lines, I hit the tone, But none of this feels like my own. I trace my steps, I check the past, Try to remember something that lasts. A moment bright, a lighter day, But every memory feels gray. [Chorus] I don’t remember being happy, Not the way they say it feels. Just moving through a faded story, Trying hard to make it real. I don’t remember being happy, Maybe I just missed the sign... Or maybe I’ve been living quiet In the background of my life. [Verse 2] I learned to keep it all inside, To smooth the cracks, to let it slide. No highs too high, no lows too deep, Just something flat I always keep. I see the world, I understand, I hold it all inside my hands. But something’s gone, I can’t define, Like feeling left me out of time. [Chorus] I don’t remember being happy, Not in colors, not in light. Only shades of something steady, Only echoes in the night. I don’t remember being happy, Not in ways I could explain... Just a quiet kind of living, Without fire, without flame. [Bridge] Maybe it was always small, Maybe I just missed it all. Maybe nothing slipped away - Maybe this is how I stay. [Final Chorus] I don’t remember being happy, Not a trace I can recall. Just a quiet kind of absence Echoing through it all. I don’t remember being happy, Maybe there was nothing there… Just a life I kept repeating Like a breath without the air.
